5/25/2010 9:12 AM
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hello ladies,
Btobe & Possible; my thoughts are with you both, I would be a mess! we are here for you all
I agree with Mablackie as well, my husband and I did iui 4 times, my RE moved us to IVF because she wanted to see how our embryo did and here we are 1 year later (our first IVF was last june) 3 IVF's in no success as of yet. DId I mention to you all that my appoint was moved AGAIN to June 8? Yeah nothing like putting this off. I have been doing well though and feeling great not on hormones, it is so nice I am losing a little weight, I feel better and I didn't bleed at all I am so happy about that. Who knows what my RE will tel me on the 8th, hopefully it is to move forward and start a cycle in July. My hubby and I need to go for our yearly blood work AGAIN!! Crazy to think we started this whole process two years ago.
Congrats to all of those ladies who have been successful, you give me such hope and help me realize that it will happen when it is time!!!! Those who are still on our rollercoaster, stay with it we are in this together, we will all get through it!!!
Have a great day ladies!!!!
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5/24/2010 6:07 PM
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btobe & possible mom.....I am so sorry you are both having to go through this. It is heartbreaking, and unfortunately, it never gets any easier. Obviously, there is no "sure way" to conceive with IVF. If there was, we'd all be doing it. On average, it takes a normal, healthy couple without fertility problems 3 cycles to conceive. My RE said that the same is often true with IVF patients.
What mablackie said is true that it takes your RE a few cycles often times to know how your body is going to react to the meds. I have a girlfriend who did several IUI's and it still took her 3 IVF cycles to conceive her twins. She was 35 at the time they were born.
Almost everyone here is out of pocket so we completely understand. It's just not fair that IVF is not covered under everyone's insurance but unfortunately, we can't change that overnight. Many RE's do offer a "Shared Risk" plan and I encourage you to see if your office does or what type of financial assistance/planning they may have.
Above all....please do not lose hope. There is almost always a way...sometimes it just takes us longer to find it. I'm getting ready for my 5th IVF procedure. My first 3 were BFN, my 4th twin boys who we lost at nearly 23 weeks. My FET is in a couple of weeks. Even though I strongly questioned God after the loss of our boys, I still completely trust that He will reward the faithful and we will have children both on Earth and then our boys in Heaven. It's a long, sometimes hard journey, but please know we are all here to support you. Hang in there girls.
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5/24/2010 5:51 PM
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snowie1978: Yes, I was watching Army Wives that show is my favorite but at times last night I had to walk out of the room. I agree there is so much hurt in this forum right now but for the ones who are happily pregnant i wish you all the happiness and for the others you are in my prayers......
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5/24/2010 5:11 PM
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Possible mom - were you watching Army Wives last night by chance? I did and cried b/c I still think about my miscarriage and it hurts and it was a year ago. I am sorry ofr all the pain on here I wish I could take it all away for all of you. As I sit here in yet another 2WW all I can hope is one day I will get my take home baby. Untill then I just wait.
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5/24/2010 2:30 PM
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btope and possible:
I am so sorry for your loses. I know how hard this is. I went through the same thing. I randomly got pregnant on our own, found out (because I randomly threw up one day) and miscarried within the first week of finding out. I think the problem with going through fertility is that you get positive pregnancy test via blood work where you might not have gotten one by POAS due to low HCG levels. I took two POAS the day I threw up. One came back positive and that was supposed to be more sensitive came back negative. So you may never have even known you were pregnant if you weren't going through fertility tests.
Please DO NOT give up. Ask your doctor's office about possible financing. I know my doctor's office works with people on financing. Talk to family members about maybe loaning you money as well. Try one more time.
These are my reasons for this. First, only 40-50% of IVF's work each time and that is if you don't have anything majorly wrong with you. Second, I don't remember either of your stories, but did either of you do any IUI's first? The reason I am asking is this. For all of my friends thave have had successful IVF's, the only ones of us who got pregnant the first time via IVF had failed IUI's first. The benefit of doing IUI's is that your doctor's know how your body responds to the hormones (Gonal-F) and progesertone, estrogen, etc. They also know how many good sperm your husband produces. So they really know your cycle and know what they need to do for IVF. If you have not gone through an IUI first, then the doctor's have no clue how your body responds to the drugs, or to a positive pregnancy, or much about your partner's sperm, before the IVF. Basically ALL of my friends who did not do an IUI first, did NOT have their first IVF work. They did have their 2nd or 3rd work (most had their 2nd IVF work). For us girls who did multiple IUI's first (and they all failed), we had a higher percentage of successufly first IVF's.
I have NO data to back this up, but this is my experience. I think if you can afford one more IVF (and emotionally you can handle it) it is worth it!
Some other advice is ask your doctor waht your chances of getting pregnant are. I asked mine one time as I was walking out of his office and his response was "I am 99.9% sure you will get pregnant, it is just a matter of how". That was huge! If your doctor gives you a good percentage, how can you walk away from that?
Good luck to you both! You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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5/24/2010 1:50 PM
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btobe: I am sooo sorry I really do know what you are going through. I still do not understand it. I was watching a show last night on TV and the woman had a miscarriage I cried for hours after it was over because it brought up alot of really upsetting memories. My husband and I had started fixing the room up by looking a wallpaper and bedding sets and getting ready to start painting the room so everything would be fresh. I think to myself was that my only shot because without insurance to cover IVF it all comes from out of pocket. I cashed in my CD to do the last IVF and I have no more to cash in so I am trying to figure out where I can find the money to try again. My Dr says I can try again next month but I just don't know if I could go through the hurt again if it happened.
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5/24/2010 12:39 PM
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Well I found out today that my numbers are starting to drop. My nurse told me to stop my prog. shots and to expect the miscarriage to happen soon. What now? How do you move on? I have to say that this was both the best and worst couple of weeks of my life.
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5/24/2010 10:21 AM
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btope: I wish you the very best with the numbers. I had the same thing happen to me and mine ended with me miscarrying on the 17th. It has taken me this long to look at this forum. I wish all the ladies luck and happiness with all they are going through. I think I may try again in about a month. I want to give myself time to get over all that went on with the last one. I was so happy then it all ended . I still dont understand how the Lord could give me a precious gift then just take it away.
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5/23/2010 4:51 PM
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Hi Ladies....it has been awhile since I have posted anything, but I have been keeping up on all the news.
I have been through BCP and Lupron and am now taking the stim meds. I am a bit more hopeful this time around that my body will respond correctly. Last time, in March, my body would not respond to the Lupron, so my RE had to cancel that IVF cycle. This time, everything, so far, is on schedule. If all works out, next week will be my ER and ET....I am a little nervous.
Prayers and baby dust to all!!
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5/23/2010 4:01 PM
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Hi Ladies, It has been SO long since I have posted anything but I do keep up with your lives everyday. There are so many new friends to the group - I am sure you are all finding the support you need during this time which can be such a rollercoaster!
A quick update for those who don't know or remember our story...we were knee deep in treatments for unexplained infertility for over 2 1/2 years - including clomid, IUI's & 5 fresh IVF's - 15 cycles total all without any success (very small preg#'s with the last IVF - by small I mean 17, 25, 8 & 0) A month & a half after that last IVF we got pregnant on our own!!!! Something we didn't even believe was possible!!
For those that are looking for symptoms - sometimes they don't happen! I didn't find out I was pregnant until say 54 of my cycle (I am also one to have crazy mixed up cycles & my longest previously had been 53 days so I wasn't even thinking pregnancy) During that time I had no symptoms except I was dizzy for about a week which I thought was allergies/vertigo!
I am definitely a believer in Acupuncture - I started 2x week in March '09 & was pregnant the beginning of October...I am still going once a week & am 34 weeks today!! Not much longer & we get to find out if our little miracle is a boy or girl!!
I wish the best for all of you! Good Luck to those in their 2ww right now.
There sounds like there are a few who are scheduled for June...Good Luck to everyone!!!
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5/23/2010 1:54 PM
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btobe, praying and mo...read your posts. Will definitely have my fingers crossed for all of you! The 1st couple weeks of June are gonna be big for all of us. I was called Friday and told my donor got her period and will baseline this coming week. So our ER will be scheduled for June 5th hopefully!!! So excited, anxious, scared, nervous!!!!!! Thinking of everyone!
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5/22/2010 1:36 PM
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First time IVFer...Had my transfer on Thursday..Now I wait for my blood test on June 4th. Keep your fingers crossed! : )
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5/22/2010 1:34 PM
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We decided to put back three embabies so I am now PUPO! Yippee! First blood test is June 1
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5/22/2010 9:46 AM
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FenSox: Congrats on the GREAT news this week. That is so very exciting! Good luck with your pregnancy.
Snowie: Congrats on the 28 day cycle. My cycles are all over the place too, so I understand how exciting an actual 28 day cycle can be! Good luck this month.
Well I have been really struggling emotionally the past two days. As you know my hcg #'s started out slow, but on Monday I received great news that they had more than doubled in two days. I guess I thought the worse was behind us. I even went out and bought "What to Expect...". Well to make a very long story short, my blood work on Friday came back that my hcg had not quite doubled since Wed. It went from 56 to 96. Well my nurse said that that was very worrisome and her gut told her that this would not be a successful pregnancy or it could be an ectopic pregnancy. That was definitely not the news that I was preparing for. She said that even though my numbers are increasing, they aren't going up high enough. To make matters worse my progesterone dropped from 46 to 12 in 2 weeks, so now I have to increase my prog. shot each day. And I have started spotting a brownish/pinkish discharge.
This whole process has been such a roller coaster of emotions. I know that I am lucky to be pregnant, but this bloodwork and #'s part has been the most stressful part of the whole process.
Does anyone have any advice?
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5/22/2010 8:40 AM
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Lucky - I am not on the progesterone shots but the suppositories. My RE told me to stop taking it on June 12th. I thought I might be with them until I was done with that too but I guess things look good so they are releasing me now?? Not sure but going with it...
I think my situation is a little different in that my fertility issues were all a male factor. Not sure if that makes a difference in my treatment, protocol, etc. This was my first IVF cycle and this is my first pregnancy.
I am excited and hopefully it continues to go well. I wish everyone else luck this week...
FenSox
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5/22/2010 8:31 AM
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Good luck today Praying I hope all goes perfectly.
Thanks Lucky and Nwells for the well wishes.
I am VERY excited about this month. As I explained my ovulation has been all over the place sometimes really early and then sometimes as late as CD21 so I took Clomid this month to regulate my cycle. And I was worried about the side effects but i had none really except it made me tired but i took it at night so no problem. But here is the good ...no GREAT news..... I am CD14 today and all signs point to ovulation today. Which means if I dont conceive i will have a successful 28 day cycle !!!!! Of course I would rather just get pregnant but either way I am SOOOOO happy with how my body responded to the Clomid.
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5/21/2010 9:13 PM
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It's been awhile since I posted anything but I am always reading everyone's posts.
Praying4 - My RE said that they would be trying to get 10 to 12 eggs for retrieval. So your number of eggs is not bad. Sometimes when you have fewer eggs they are better quality. Also if you are doing a 3 day transfer 3 is a good number to put in. Because at that stage you have a better chance of 1 embryo sticking. If you were doing a 5 day transfer and they blastocysts then you might be more worried. On a 5 day transfer you have a much higher percentage chance that the pregnancy will occur. My RE is doing that with me. I just turned 30 and she said that if we have 3 good embies they would do a 3 day transfer with 3 embies. Or 2 blastocysts on a 5 day. So I think your RE is doing the right thing. For patients close to 40 I think that is fairly typical to put in more embryos. Some times they even put 3 blastocysts on a 5 day. Good Luck hope all goes well for you!
Fensox - Congrats! How exciting that they are releasing you to your OB. If they are doing that are you still on progesterone shots? My RE said that I would be with them for 10 weeks before they release me to my OB and that is how long I would have to take progesterone shots. Just wondering if there is some correlation there.
Mablackie - Congrats on being 28 weeks! You are so close! Are you having a C- section scheduled early? I hear with twins you deliver a month earlier. If so you are so close to seeing your babies. You give me hope that it really can happen on the 1st try of IVF. That is what I am hoping, praying, and wishing for.
Btobe - Congrats! The only thing you can do is try to stay positive and take it easy!
IVF2mom - I will be starting my cycle on June 12th, so I think we will be cycling around the same time. Good Luck!
Snowie1978 - Hope everything is going well for you trying the old fashioned way.
NWells - Have fun getting a tattoo. After all the poking with needles from IVF getting poked for a tattoo probably isn't a big deal. HAHA. But its a good way to get your mind off things.
As for me I haven't had much to say because I am still on BCP. Since I had a canceled cycle in Feb they are trying a completely different protocol. Thankfully my RE treats cash paying patients differently, she is both conservative and aggressive at the same time. Because she realizes this may be our only chance. So after I stop BCP I then start taking lupron just 2 days before stims twice a day. Then I am going to be on 3 bravelle and 2 menopur morning and night. So she is really pounding the drugs this time since I didn't respond last time to one vial of each twice a day. So hopefully this will work and I can get a response. I just want to make it all the way through this time and finally get some eggs and of course to hopefully get pregnant. I know that may not happen as my RE gave us a 50/50 chance but I am trying to stay as positive as I can. So hopefully June 12th will hurry up and get here so I can get this over with.
For everyone I didn't mention Good Luck with what ever stage you are currently at!
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5/21/2010 7:59 PM
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Well, Its official! My ET is tomorrow at 10am. Out of the 5 eggs, 3 have are at the 4 cell stage. The RE mentioned about maybe putting in 3 embabies. this is a shock. We had our mind set on 2. I'm sorta worried that he has recommeded 3 to give us a better chance because none of the embabies are good ones. I'm also sorta worried that if we put back 3, what if all three implants. I want to do what ever needs to be done to ensure that this is successful but I don't know if we can afford or handle three. the RE said that we will see what the embabies do between today and tomorrow and talk about it before the ET.
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5/21/2010 9:32 AM
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btobe - funny you should ask about cramping. I have been getting cramping on and off since my retrieval. Now it is just annoying cramping and not bad enough that I need to take anything - BUT I called my doctor yesterday because I have been getting the cramping for a couple of days in the afternoon and like you worry about everything. I spoke to the nurse and she said I need to be drinking 8-10 glasses of water over above what I would normally be drinking. Definitely not been doing that so I am starting today and we will see.
I went to my fertility doctor this Tuesday for my 7 week ultrasound and they graduated me. We saw the baby's heartbeat and the baby had grown exactly as it should from my 5 week ultrasound. I am now turned over to my regular OB/ GYN. I am really happy and really excited but nervous too. I won't be getting the constant monitoring I have been getting and I am liking getting baby pics every two weeks
Since Tuesday I am completely relaxed but still nervous - obviously. Really tired and sick to my stomach most of the day. I have never in my life not enjoyed eating and now I could deal if I did not eat except I would get sick for not eating too.
I wish everyone luck going through the procedures now. I think a little praying and positive attitude about it all goes a long way...
FenSox...
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5/21/2010 8:34 AM
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wannabe...my protocol sounds slightly different....i stopped bcp on WED and am continuing lupron until AF comes then I will have my estradiol check and hopefully start estrace three times a day. I start the pio I think the day of her retrieval. These weeks leading up to this seem to drag on at times. My DH and I are really excited, anxious, etc. I've also never had lining issues so hopefully won't this time either! stay in touch!
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5/20/2010 1:40 PM
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Well I got my call today. Out of the seven eggs, five were mature and fertilizing. he said he would look at them tomorrow to see how theyare doing. he would decide from that if we will do ET Sat. at 9:30 or Mon at 1:00
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5/20/2010 11:50 AM
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hello ladies,
Btobe that is great that your #"s doubled, be positive!!! it will work out
IVF2mom: welcome, you will find all the support you need here!!!
Snowie: way to go, good luck hope it works for you!!! there seems to be a lot of baby dust around right now so hopefully some goes your way:o)
Praying4: I wouldn't worry about the #'s, I am all about quality instead of quantity, I usually produce over 20 eggs and most of the time 1/2 are immature and they haven't been great quality. My second time i only had 13, 9 fertilized and they grew better. SO I am all about less eggs and better quality at this point. Who knows what my next cycle will bring.
I was thinking the other day, when we go through IVF we know what is happening and therefore we know to take it easy. This month I am enjoying not taking any hormones my body is loving it. I didn't even bother to count my cycle until a couple of day ago just to see when Myrtle will be arriving- I like to know so I am prepared. So I realized my husband and I managed to hit day 9 and day 13- hey you never know right!! But I have been walking every day, yesterday I ran in practice with the girls, and I have not been taking it easy by any means and I keep thinking what if- granted probably not but even so. I wouldn't have the faintest clue either, I cramp anyway, so those aren't a give away, after being on the progesterone I now realize that when my chest starts to get sore I know it is just the hormones kicking in & that started about 4 days ago, but they are not as bad as usual, which honestly is so nice. Weird thing though is I have sharp pings of pain in my abdomen , those are unusual. Who knows, Myrtle will be here next Tuesday, she is probably just moving in and those are the pings of pain that I feel.
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5/20/2010 6:45 AM
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btope-I had cramps a lot early on in my pregnancy. I was not one to get cramps very often during that time of the month, so these were different for me. I think it's because your body has been through so much and your ovaries are still over stimulated. At my first few ultrasounds the doctor would always say "Yup, I can tell these are IVF ovaries"...whatever that means. Congrats on the numbers doubling. That is great news! The one thing I have to say, is that after all you've been through to get pregnant, you will probably worry throughout your entire preganncy. I am 28 weeks with twins and I'm at the point where if the babies were born now, they coudl live. You would think i would relax, but I still worry. I am a freak about making it to 37 weeks!
Praying, I know plenty of women who've literally only had 2 good eggs and both (or 1 took). So all you need is 1. I do sort of believe in the fact that if you have too many eggs, they are not as good quality. It sounds like it was a success. Good luck with the transfer!!!
IVF2, good luck with everything! I was 33 when I did my first IVF as well. I started seeing the fertility specialist after 7 months of trying with no luck. After 3 failed IUI's and one very early miscarriage where I got pregannt on my own, my first IVF worked. Stay positive! That is the best advice I can give you. Stay positive and try to stay busy so you don't worry so much over those two weeks. Oh, except for the first few days after the transfer. Do nothing those few days! Literally, lay on the couch all day.
Snowie, good luck this week! I am so happy you get to try on your own. I know things are going to work out for you here soon.
Wannabe, good luck with your transfer as well. It sounds like things are right on and going well. I Honestly feel like it is your and Snowie's time. I believe this will happen soon for you. Thanks for staying so positive and supporting everyone else. Like I've siad before "good things happen to good people. It's your turn!
Good luck ladies!
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5/19/2010 10:30 PM
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FenSox: When you were having your cramping in your very early pregnancy, did you find anything besides walking and water that helped to relieve them? I get cramps everyday for a few hours and they are bearable, but soooo annoying. Any suggestions?
Has anyone ever had an ectopic pregnancy? I was reading online that it was a slightly elevated risk of fertility treatments and I am just curious if there are any early symptoms. I am sort of a hypochondriac...lol... and if there is something to worry about, I do!!
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5/19/2010 7:21 PM
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Yay btobe! @Praying, I was told the last thing you wanna do is compare yourself to other women. There are too many other factors to consider so you are doing right by trusting in the Lord and knowing that He can turn no eggs into a baby of that is his will or you. God Bless
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5/19/2010 6:05 PM
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There was a lady beside me that was just coming out as I was waiting to go in. she said that she was 40 (I will be 38 in July) and she had 16 eggs. So I was alittle disappointed when I came out with only 7 eggs. But I started thinking about the positives: the number doesn't matter, but how good the eggs are does, I could have come out with only 2 eggs, and the main one-GOD HAS THE LAST WORD ON THIS! So I'm good now. I should know about my fert. report in the morning between 8-10.
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5/19/2010 3:10 PM
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Hi Ladies. I recieved really good news from my blood work today! My HCG level more than doubled and went from 25 to 56 in two days. My dr. told me that I had reason to be optimistic. Now I have to keep going back every two days to make sure that the baby keeps growing. I just have to put it in God's hands!
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5/19/2010 7:09 AM
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IVF2mom I just wanted to say welcome and I know you will find the support you need here. Sounds like though you have one all you can do and now you just need to get started. Good luck on your upcoming cycle
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5/18/2010 10:56 PM
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Hello (I posted a new topic but looks like this is the hot spot),
In 10 days I will start my first meds. Just a little bit about my story! This will be my first IVF cycle after only trying to conceive without assistance for 8 months. Since I'm 33, my doctor didn't want us trying for longer than 6 months. Within these 8 months my mother dies of lung cancer so we thought it was just the stress of dealing with her death. Finally I had a HSG to get my tubes tested and low and behold, both of my tubes were completely blocked. I was in the hospital 5 days with a serious infection from the HSG test. After getting through that fiasco we sat down with a fertility specialist to discuss our options....which is this case was only IVF. On the same day, he did a quick ultrasound and spotted a fibroid tumor pressing up against my uterus. So one month after being in the hospital I was back for a myomectomy to get 5 fibroids removed. Now I've had 6 months of recovery and doc says everything looks great and we met the nurse last week for the teaching visit. My husband had to get do the semen analysis and acted like it was going to kill him. Men are such babies. :-) I told him, try lying spread eagle on a table with large devices being inserted. (Okay that was totally just venting...haha). Back to the story. So in 10 days I have my next appointment and will start my meds the very next day. I'm taking certain precautions to keep stress down. I had a one-on-one with my supervisor to discuss what I expect from him. Ironically and unfortunately, his wife went through IVF unsuccessfully so he understands much of what I am about to experience. I told him it would probably be best if he didn't come into my office during the entire month of June unless he came with chocolate. (We both laughed). My husband and I are attending a patient seminar on success strategies for overcoming the emotional challenges associated with infertility in a few weeks. My husband is pretty good about keeping me protected from outside stresses and has no problem taking care of the household responsibilties. He proved that during both of my hospital stays. The only thing left is dealing with my internal stresses, worries and fears. Any other suggestions?
Well I said all that to say Hi, nice to meet you all!
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5/18/2010 10:13 PM
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OPK was a faint line today so O is right around the corner. I am on CD10 today so me and DH started BDing tonight so there are sperm waiting and ready. I am also using Preseed this cycle since I used Clomid. I dont want my CM dried out. I also went to the doctor today for a pelvic exam mid cycle and the doctor said everything went well. He tested my pH levels and he said they are absolutely perfect so that wont be a problem for his swimmers YAY!!
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5/18/2010 8:41 PM
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hello ladies,
I am enjoying a glass of wine, yes it is tuesday but seriously when you have seniors you need the wine!!!
I haven't read in a couple of days so I tried to catch up, i noticed there were some newbies, hello welcome to our family. This is the best place to be when you are going through IVF!!!!
btobe- I will wait till after wed to say anything, but be happy at least you have a positive, what I wouldn't give just to hear that!!!!
praying4, sounds like you are on track, stay with it and keep us posted
Possible- SOOO sorry, we are here for you!!!
Luci- I have yet to even get a positive preg, I have 3 failed IVFs, I have gone through a moc cycle as well and we are waiting for the results of my biopsy, and my husbands extensive sperm check. ALSO my doc wasn't wasting any time, our embies don't grow well, so she told us to contact this place called COUNSYL were they send you a kit, and you do a spit sample and send it back and they test for over 100 different genic disorders. It is about 330 a kit, it might be something you want to ask your RE about, honestly I am glad we did it. We find out everything next Friday UGH, so nervous. I hope and pray everything comes back ok!!!!
SO those of you who know my story, I usually bleed mid cycle, I have since I as 29, once we started this whole infertility stuff I went three IUI cycles with no bleeding, 4th I bled, all IVF cycles I have bled mid cycle- I have had three D&C, had endomitits twice, it is an infection in the uterus that is cleared up with an antibiotic in nov I had endometriosis surgery where they found endo, since then I did one more IVF and bled, did a moc cycle and bled. this month my own hormones, feels so good, and guess what NO BLEEDING!!!! yeah!!!!! I can't wait to find out what my RE is going to say about all of this- YOU give me hormones I bleed mid cycle, I go on my own hormones no bleeding what is up with that!!!!!!
So ladies I am going to get a little crazy- ya ALL ready??? i am getting another tatoo- yeah I have one of a seahorse, love them- anyway turtles and Kokopelli are said to be symbols of fertility, so are frogs- so I found a tatoo of a turtle that is in the shape of the kokopelli and I going to get it as a tatoo!!!! Hey I will do all it takes to make this work!!!LOL
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5/18/2010 8:38 PM
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Oh, BTW Cristeen, forgot to tell you "Happy Birthday!!" As they say, 40 is the new 30....glad you had a great birthday and may all your birthday wishes come true this year!
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5/18/2010 8:37 PM
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Hi Cristeen! It'll be fun to have a "cycle buddy" this go around. Here's hoping we both get huge BFP's! This has been a bit of a strange cycle for me. I started BCP's end of March and Lupron (10 units) on April 8th. Unfortunately, it "up regulated" me this time instead of suppressing me. It's the 5th time I've taken Lupron and the first time that's happened. Anyway, they made me ovulate and then begin Lupron again so I've been on 20 units now since May 6th and am finally suppressed. Yeah! I drop down to 10 units tomorrow and then start my Estrace to build my lining on Thursday. I'll start with 2 Estrace daily and work my way up to 8 per day over the next week or so. I go in again to the RE on June 1 for my Estradiol & U/S. I've never had lining issues so hopefully that is the case this time. I'll start PIO & steroids 5 days before transfer. My hubby and I are very excited and ready for our FET. We've been at this for over 2 years so we are so ready for some good news! I'm excited you found a donor you're happy with and am sure you'll have great results. As for being inspiring, thank you very much. I have learned so much about myself, my relationships, and my faith this year with everything that has happened. I know I can survive anything that life has to throw my way now. Like the saying goes...that which doesn't kill us makes us stronger! Take good care and keep me posted on your cycle!
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5/18/2010 8:25 PM
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Possible...so sorry for what you're going through. Will be praying for you and your future
Wannabe.... we are going to cycle the same week. My donor is scheduled for her ER June 5th and the transfer then will be June 8th if all goes as planned. I found out just yesterday I needed to start Lupron..I was kinda aggravated because I asked a month ago when I got my bcp if I would be doing Lupron at some point and was told no. But they checked again with my RE and she wanted bcp's overlapped with lupron. So I started 10 units of lupron last night and will take my last bcp tomorrow and then wait for AF and have a blood draw for estradiol level. I am anxious, nervous, excited, etc. Can't believe after all this time we're finally here!!!!!
Turned 40 on Sunday...my DH made it such a great weekend! I'm okay with 40...lucky to have what I have!! Wannabe..you inspire me. Having been through what you went through with your boys..your strength and faith is amazing!
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5/18/2010 4:10 PM
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hi girls,
Possible Mom, so very sorry to hear your news. I know it is unbearable right now and so disheartening, but try not to lose faith. (Easier said than done, I realize.) I know it's hard to be pregnant and then lose (I delivered our boys @ 23 weeks and lost them both) but through all of this I've realized I have to keep my faith. There are reasons that we can't see or understand. Doesn't make it hurt any less, but I believe it's true. Know we'll all be here to support you. I hope you are able to find a way to cycle again. Most of us do not have any kind of insurance coverage for IVF...I didn't even have it for maternity, but if you keep looking, I think God will help you find a way. Hang in there. I will be thinking about you.
Trying2....best wishes for your beta tomorrow!! I hope you get wonderful news. Have you been strong enough not to POAS?
Luci....good to hear from you and been thinking about you too. So glad your RE is getting aggressive with the genetic testing. I know it's a drag to be stuck by a needle so much but will all be worth it if they find the cause of your miscarriages. Keep us posted.
Btobe....congrats on your pregnancy! I will be praying you get great numbers at your next test.
Praying4...good luck with your ER on Wednesday!
As I mentioned above, most of us are paying everything out of pocket and it does get so expensive. For those of you gals in your first cycles, you may want to look for a clinic that offers a "shared risk" program if you decide to cycle again. Not all clinics have them and most have age stipulations, but it could help financially for some of you.
I had my suppression check today (again) and am finally suppressed. Hallelujah! About time. Start my Estrace on Thursday and should be on track for my FET the week of June 7th. Finally some good news.
Hope everyone is well and wishing everyone lots of success. XO
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5/18/2010 11:39 AM
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Possible- I am so sorry that things did not turn out better. I went through the same thing at the beginning of the month. I hope that you can find a way to try again. I wish that there was something that I could say to make you feel better. I will be thinking of you.
Btobe- I hope that your numbers get better.
Praying - Good luck !
I went to the doctor's yesterday. My SIS came back fine. After my second loss they did a whole bunch of blood work and genetic tests on the baby. The only thing that came back was the MTHFR mutation. I am being treated for it. Since this is my 3rd loss, my doctor want to do more in depth testing. They told blood from my husband and I to do genetic testing. Tomorrow I get more blood work done to test for even more random things. He said that the genetic test will come back in about 2 weeks. If anything comes back on any of my blood work then he wants to check the embryos to make sure that they are all healthy. I am so sick of blood work and being poked and prodded. I am sick of trying and then finally getting pregnant just to have it end in blood and tears. I am just so worried about all of this. The doctor said that if everything comes back fine then we will do another FET. I am trying to be positive and hopeful but I am having trouble.
Baby dust to all.
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5/18/2010 4:18 AM
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This site provides interesting insight into betas.
http://www.betabase.info/showBasicChart.php?type=Single
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5/17/2010 9:04 PM
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epilady- thanksk for the article on metformin, I think it is worth at least discussing with my new doctor next week.
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5/17/2010 8:52 PM
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btobe:Sometimes the first numbers lag a little , the next beta test on Wednesday will tell a lot. good luck!
luci- sorry to hear about your tough month. June will be better!
Possible- I am so sorry to hear your situation. I went thru the same thing the first IVF and it is totally devastating. I know there are no words to make you feel better right now but know that we are here for you.
praying4: good luck on the egg retrival this week!
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5/17/2010 6:02 PM
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Possiblemom, I am sorry to hear about your news. We will have to come up with something else if our 1st and only time doesn't work. But I have no idea what that will be since we are paying out of pocket too. I will keep u in my prayers.
AFM- my ER is scheduled for Wednesday, with a ET on Sat. the 22nd or Mon the 24th. my first beta will be june 1.
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5/17/2010 4:20 PM
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My first beta was a 43, my nurse also stated she would have preferred it be higher, but I am currently 28 weeks pregnant at 42 years old from my first IVF attempt (implanted 2, 5 day blastocysts). I also tried a home test a few days before the beta, and it was negative. Hang in there, I know how stressful it all can be!
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5/17/2010 3:52 PM
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btobe - I know that you have to be over 25 to be considered pregnant. They will look to see if your numbers double by Wednesday. You have to remain positive, to me this part was the most stressful. Here is a website I found helpful during this time: http://www.americanpregnancy.org/duringpregnancy/hcglevels.html
Everyone's levels are different... Congrats on the positive - I know the whole BUT thing... Drove me insane...
FenSox...
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5/17/2010 3:09 PM
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What a crumby day here! It has been rainy all day and I just got the results of my 1st beta. I am pregnant, but barely. My HCG # was like a 25, and the nurse said that they really wanted it to be around 50. So now more waiting and blood tests. It totally sucks that I finally get the news that I have waited to hear for 5 years and there has to be a "but" attached to it. My nurse really didn't give me any details to what this really meant, but I have to go back for blood work on Wednesday to see what my #'s are doing. Can anyone give me any insight???
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5/17/2010 10:33 AM
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Snowie1978: thank you very much for your kind words. It is really nice to know that I am not the only one that lives with this unfair condition. It really boils my blood when I see that insurance will cover men's issues like erectile disfunction and when it comes to infertility in women that is not covered. I just don't understand it. I am mad and so hurt at all of this. God allowed me to me a mom for 5 weeks then it is taken away I just don't understand why. I really want to be a mom I just need to find the funds or maybe the lotto(Ha Ha). Again ladies I wish you all the happiness you all so richly deserve..
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5/17/2010 10:10 AM
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Sorry to hear your news PossibleMom. I understand your predictament as I was 100% out of pocket too and thought I only had one shot at it as well. Then after a LOT of soul searching and praying God found a way to make me believe I have a chance again. So give yourself time to heal mentally and physically then wait for god to show you his direction.
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5/17/2010 8:23 AM
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Well the HCG went to 10 and my Dr said to stop everything and just let the miscarriage happen. I am so upset because that was my one shot. I cashed in my CD to pay for the IVF I have no more extra money and my insurance does not cover Ivf so that was it . I guess the Lord does not think I need to be a mom. I am so hurt and don't know what to do. My Dr. said I could try again after a month but I just don't see how. I do wish all the ladies in the forum all the luck with whatever they are going through.
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5/17/2010 7:30 AM
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Well I took my last dose of Clomid on Saturday. Luckily I didn't really have any side effects except it made me really tired. But I took it at night so that was no problem either. I just wait now to ovulate. For those of you who took it how many days after the last pill did you find you ovulated? Everything I looked up says 5 to 10 days. But I ws wondering if it leans more towards the 5 days or the 10 days.
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5/17/2010 6:42 AM
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Luci,
One thing to be extremely positive about is the fact taht you got pregnant. The same exact thing happened to me before we did our 3 failed IUI's and then our 1st successful IVF. My doctor said that the fact that i got pregnant on my own was huge! That meant that my husband's sperm could definitely fertilize my eggs and so doing so meant that your chances of doing an IVF were even higher. I guess that for some reason for some couples this does not happen and no one knows why. So stay positive! Know that you can get pregnant again and you will! Good luck to you.
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5/15/2010 10:47 PM
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Possible Mom- I hope that your numbers get better.
I have been doing okay. This miscarriage hasn't bugged me as much as I thought it would. I guess that it just wasn't real yet . We only knew for 10 days before we were told that it wasn't going to be viable and my numbers were never what they should have been. I am still sad. It gave me one more reason to hate the month of May. I m/c on the 4th, the 7th would have been my parents 33 rd anniversary(Dad has only been dead for 6 months) and then there was mother's day and the 13th the baby I lost at 17 weeks would have been a year old. I am missing my dad a lot through this process. On Monday I have to go in to the doctor's for an SIS , since this is my 3rd m/c. I had all the bloodwork and genetic tests last time and all they found was the MTHFR mutation. I just had an SIS in June when we started up again. The doctor isn't really worried but he wants to double check. After that we get to talk to him to see where we go from here. I assume we will do another FET, I still have 12 embryos left. I just hope that it works soon, I do not want to go through the egg retrieval again. I am trying to remain positive and have hope but it is hard.
I hope that everyone has a great weekend. Baby dust to all.
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5/14/2010 11:28 PM
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I had my 2nd US/BW today. I had one follie at 19 and the rest between 10 and 14 (21 total). my Estradiol level was 787 and my Progesterone level was .7
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