5/3/2010 8:57 AM
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Hello Ladies,
I just got caught up with everyone. I am good, Myrtle was moody on Saturday and made my morning miserable, and the heat didn't help, I was still able to function just a little slower then usual though, which is good. I think back to the way my cramps use to be and I think how did I ever get through them. My appointment was moved till the 21st because my RE wants to wait for the results on Counsyl DNA testing to come back before we meet, that way we have ALL the answers and I either know I can move forward or I need to just accept that I will not be a mom and move on. I feel the same way as epilady what is meant for my life if I am not a mom, but I guess I will have to face that question on the 21st!! Not sure really where I will go, I guess I am remaining hopeful!!!!
To the girls on the their first IVF- the retrieval is not that bad, you will be loopy on happy meds, my third time I watched the screen as my RE removed the eggs, weird!!! You don't feel it, and after you will be a little crampy but I just use a heating pad and tylenol, and it works, then you need to eat protein and drink gatorade or some type of drink with electrolytes . Good luck!!!
Luci, so sorry, I can't imagine how you must feel, I had a tear for you, and I am thinking about you!!!
Fansox, relax, take it easy don't stress yourself out, you are pregnant, what I wouldn't give to have that right now!! everything will be fine.
Irishgirl- been there, through 4 failed IUIs and 3 IVFS, with no frozen embies, just went through a mock cycle. I know how you feel, and you can't give up hope, you have to keep moving forward, take if from someone who knows and has felt that feeling of failure, that it will never work, depression all of it, I know how you feel, I can feel that ache in your stomach, the tears, I know!!! you have to pick your self up move forward, find answers, ask questions. I am here for you!!!!
well ladies I have to get back to work I will talk more later, or tomorrow.
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5/3/2010 7:24 AM
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Ladybug- How are you doing? I was just thinking of you the other day`and wanted to see how you are doing. Are you staying relaxed and calm? We will both be getting news around the same time. I have absolutely NO symptoms so I dont think it is my month. I am 9DPO today ...with my 1st IVF I didnt get a positive till 6DP5DT so that is like 11DPO so I am not gonna test at all before then. AF is due on Saturday so I hope she stays away. Good luck to you and me ;o)
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5/2/2010 10:54 PM
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FenFox actually it takes exactly 2.7 days to double so if you miss the .7 part it may be slightly lower then double but you are really close so I would not worry...you are pregnant exciting!!! Now comes the yucky part hormone surges morning sickness and so on but so exciting....my numbers way mored then doubled waiting to see how many babies next week...have a good week girls lots of love!!!!
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5/2/2010 8:22 PM
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Fenfox-
Yes, that is totally normal! My doctor said that levels take 48 to 72 hours to double, so yours are right on! I know it's hard, my advice for you is to stay off of the interent. I've been doing that recently too. This group is great and wonderful to support you when you need. The bad part of the internet is reading about all of the miscarraiges and things that go wrong. It seems like people only post things when they are bad, not when they are good. I was really freaking out too thinking about all of the things that could go wrong with my pregnancy. I finally stopped spending so much time on the internet. Think positive! I am sure your 3rd beta will be great. Let us know how it goes and try to relax. Good luck tomorrow!
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5/2/2010 6:04 PM
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I am having so much anxiety right now and it is stupid I think. I have my 3rd beta test tomorrow and I guess I am reading too much online because I am so freaked out. I think I am ok but feel like all the monitoring is waiting for something to go wrong and I know that is not the case.
I need to get a grip and keep the positive thoughts flowing but having such a hard time with that right now. The what if is far over shadowing the excitement and that just feels so wrong.
My first beta was 128, my second beta was 225 - this is ok right? I did not double in 48 hours and now I feel like something is wrong with me even though I have read that everyone is different and it can take up to 72 hours to double. Just need some warm, happy thoughts from someone who has been through this and knows more than me...
Fensox...
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5/2/2010 5:32 PM
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Mummy23 - keep your eye on the dream that is coming true, that baby is a wonderful miracle of life. Morning sickness will pass, you will be ok. It is all worth it and you will realize that. Keep the faith, stay strong.
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5/1/2010 10:39 PM
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Hi ladies i have been MIA just like Toni with all the treatment and doctor appts its been crazy... 9 weeks tomorrow baby is and I am so totally depressed I feel I did something terrible knowing the other babies where girls and how badly I wanted them and now I am totally doubting all of this and feel like I am slipping into a depression....not really looking forward to anymore medication no more sickness tired of not being able to eat like a normal person and just kind of overwhelmed....I want to be so happy and do everything just right but not much in the mood for NOTHING I am sure the hormone surge is totally unhelpful and my 18 year old step daughter who brags on Facebook how her family is complete with 2 boys and 2 girls it kinda makes me want to punch her plus last weekend I turned 30 and the day of party she went into labor I asked my hubby to wait for me but he didn't he left to birth his 4th grandchild and because my stepdaughter is crazy as well as her mother I get to be no part of it which makes me even madder...feeling quite like the mad hatter today!!!! Maybe BIPOLAR....who would have thought the effects would be negative rather then positive...and off goes hubby...so I will catch up soon NWells hope your results give a definitive answer with a definite treatment hoping and praying how are you ladies? I have missed you all! Sorry to come on and whine but didn't know where else to go...thanks for being here
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5/1/2010 7:04 PM
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Luci - I am terribly sorry for your situation. I can relate, as I went through the exact same thing last October. I had a positive result and then for no apparent reason my beta kept dropping. After I stopped the meds, I, like you, had to wait to m/c. For me, I stopped meds on a Monday and started to m/c on Friday. I had 6 snow babies, but it does not take away from the loss you feel. No matter how long you are pregnant, you already love the baby you are carrying. Please let yourself grieve (in any way that will help you). I am almost 40, so I felt like I did not have time to "recover" before I tried with my frozen embryos, so we tried again on December 10th and I am happy to say I am almost 23 weeks along and thus far everything is great. My clinic actually told me that pregnancy can occur more often with frozen embryos, so when you are ready to move on, keep that fact in mind. Please take care.
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5/1/2010 6:45 PM
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Luci: I am so sorry to hear about your situation. I know you are terribly disappointed and grieving. I know it doesn't make it easier but it is good news that you have 12 embryos, apparently the FET process is much easier than the whole IVF process.
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5/1/2010 6:24 PM
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FenSox: Congrats on the positive test!!!!! come one beta, double, double, double!!!
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5/1/2010 6:21 PM
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Btobe and Lucky: I found that I was in pain the day of the retrieval and a little groggy from the anesthesia. you definitely can't drive for 24 hrs. But after that you are OK. Unfortunately, my grandmother passed away at the exact same time of my IVF cycle and her wake was the day of my retrieval. I made it to the evening session but I felt very weak. But I was Ok by the next day. I took off the whole week because my job is much easier to plan in advance since you never know exactly what day the retrieval will be. i used the 2 days in between to cook and clean so I could just take it easy after the transfer. But if you are looking to save your vacation time, you should be fine to work the days in between the retrieval and transfer.
Ladybug: good luck on the 2ww, drink lots of water and take it easy as much as you can!
oldmom: good luck with your retrieval!
Thanks to everyone for your support. I have good and bad days. I think epilady said it perfectly , "what is meant for my life if I'm not meant to be a mom?" I just can't imagine the possibility that we might not ever be parents. I feel like there is this gaping hole and I always thought we would have kids by this point in my life. But what if it is not meant to be?
Spoke with my RE about the failed IVF, he said that the quantity and quality of my eggs was worse this time and that my elevated FSH (9.7) indicates that my ovaries are acting older than my age (33). Very discouraging news to hear. We have an appt at the end of the month to see a doctor at Cornell. I guess it will be good to hear his opinion on our chances of success if we try again. I don't want to go thru this again if we have a very low chance of success, but I am not ready to give up. Thanks for listening, it is so helpful for me to share with people who understand the hearbreak I am feeling.
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5/1/2010 7:19 AM
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Sorry, I should have been more clear. My ER was at 3:15 in the afternoon and because of the sedation you cannot drive for 24 hours. That is why I could not drive to work in the AM. There was no other reason from my doctor.
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5/1/2010 1:47 AM
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Lucky....good luck with your upcoming first IVF. Hope it all goes well for you. I've had egg retrieval a few times and, personally, didn't think it was too painful. The day of, I felt a bit crampy/sore but not to the point where it impaired me. The day of retrieval I mostly sleep though due to having been sedated. It leaves you feeling quite tired. By the next day, I have always been fine. If anything, a slight "twinge" now and then. Nothing too bad though and Tylenol can take care of that. My RE has never said anything about driving except for the day of retrieval due to sedation. The next day I went about my normal routine. I do think it is really, really important though to take it easy after transfer. I would use your time off there so that you can keep your feet up and take it easy for implantation. Hope this helps. Again, best wishes for a great IVF and hopefully a baby in your near future.
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4/30/2010 8:29 PM
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Hi ladies!
Wow, this board is active. I'm currently cycling with a donor. We tried one IVF cycle of our own and produced 2 eggs on the highest dosage of stims. I turned 43 last November and had a tubal ligation after my third child from a previous marriage. My currently DH doesn't have any children of his own. We were going to try one more time with our own eggs, but my insurance does not cover the drugs or anything that is not "diagnostic", which we had already gone through and used up. I've been on Lupron since March 31st and Estrace since April 15th. My donor has been on bcps and Lupron and just started Gonal-F yesterday, so ER should be around May 10th or 11th. We'll be doing a 5 day transfer. I try not to let myself get too excited or thinking about what my life would be like having another baby after 10 years. I haven't told family or friends about using a donor and it's been extremely hard keeping it in. I've caught myself about 3 or 4 times from just blurting something out!
TJ......oldmom
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4/30/2010 5:33 PM
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Lucky - I just went through my first IVF cycle in April and my retrieval was on a late Sunday afternoon and my transfer was on a Wednesday. I was not allowed to drive to work on Monday so I worked from home. Went into the office on Tuesday and then took the rest of the week off. Based on what I experienced between the emotions, the pain, the tiredness, etc - I wished I had taken the whole week off to regroup and rest.
Hope this helps... I felt pain for probably 2 days and then just cramping after that...
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4/30/2010 5:07 PM
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Luci - I am so sorry. Please do try and take some comfort in the fact that you had 12 frozen embryos. That is a very high number from what I can tell from other peoples post. My RE is actually only trying to get 10 to 12 embryos total. She said that when you produce higher numbers like 20 the egg quality is not always as high of a grade. So if you have 12 embryos that actually made it then that is very lucky!
btobe - good luck with your retrieval I hope you get some great eggs!
Ladybug good luck on your 2ww. Try and take it easy.
irishgirl - I am so sorry about your BFN. I have also been trying for 3 years with 2 IUI's and will be going through my 1st full cycle of IVF in June. I know how hard it is to try and stay positive. But my RE said that most couples get pregnant in 1 to 3 cycles of IVF. I have also read that 80% of couples get pregnant doing 1 to 3 cycles of IVF. Have you thought about changing RE's?
In the Chicago area there are clinic that have a shared plan. You get 3 to 6 tries at IVF between $16,000 to $26,000. If you don't get pregnant you get 80 to 100% of your money back. So something to think about.
I have a question, for those of you who have been through egg retrieval. Did you have a lot of pain after wards? I am trying to figure out how many vacation days I should request off during this process. I am taking the retrieval day off but I am wondering if I should take more time. If there is a lot of pain in the days after. I am taking more time so I can be on bed rest for 2 to 3 days following the transfer. So I am just trying to figure out how much time to allow myself. Since this will be my first full cycle (hopefully it doesn't get canceled again). I am wondering what to expect.
I know I am such a planner and this whole process has been so frustrating because I thought had my life all planned out. I told my husband that we could start a family right after we got married. HA that was 3 years ago now. Maybe I jinxed myself. I guess I can't really plan my life out, God has other things in store for me.
But I think that for women like us we will appreciate our children so much more because we went through so much to get them. They won't be able to say that they were not wanted!
Hope everyone has a great weekend!
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4/30/2010 5:01 PM
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Luci...I am so very sorry for your loss. It is so hard each & every time. I understand what you meant about wanting "this baby". When I lost my twin boys at almost 23 weeks, I was devasted. After carrying them for so long, birthing them, holding them, etc., it was very hard to see any light at the end of the tunnel. I am grateful though that I have 4 frozen embryos and I know, when the time is right, we will both be glad to try again. Take your time for now to grieve. It's an important part of the entire process and you can't move forward until you go through this. I'll be thinking about you and praying for you.
epilady....good to hear from you again. Sorry that you are struggling also and sorry to hear that your DH is not in a good place. IVF is so hard anyway and it really can take a toll on people and marriages. I hope things work out for you on every level. Take good care.
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4/30/2010 4:25 PM
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Luci: I know that I don't have the right words to make you feel better, but I hope that you find a little comfort in knowing that I am praying for you and your husband to find support and strength in God and each other. I am so sorry that you have to go through this.
FenSox: This is my very 1st IVF cycle, and everything has gone good so far, but the retrieval definitely has me nervous.
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4/30/2010 12:51 PM
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btobe - is this your first retrieval?
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4/30/2010 12:50 PM
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luci1313 - I don't know that I have any advice or answers that will help you and at this point can't even imagine what you are going through - BUT I do think you have to find some part of you that remains positive and strong through this. I think it is great that you have 13 embryos frozen, while it is not being pregnant right now it sure helps make the process easier the next time you try. I produced 11 eggs, only 3 fertilized and only 2 ended up making it. If my beta drops and I miscarry I have to start ALL over and that scares the heck out of me. You are a strong person, you have dealt with a lot - you can deal with this and come out an even better person.
You have to find some peace with the grief, if you don't you may never have success. I believe success is your whole well being including mind. I have faith in you even though I don't know you...
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4/30/2010 12:11 PM
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Hi ladies. I just got back from my RE a little while ago and he scheduled my retrieval for Monday. I am really excited, but also fearful of the unknown. Does anyone have any advice or tips to share?
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4/30/2010 12:11 PM
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I just heard back from the doctor. My beta dropped from138 to97. I stopped my meds . Now I get to sit and wait for the miscarriage to happen. I got back in a week to make sure that everything is dropping , so they know if it is ectopic. I just really thought that this was it. I just don't know how much more loss and disappointment I can take. I know that we can try again and that we have 12 embryos , my husband thinks that telling me this is helpful. it really isn't. I wanted this baby.
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4/30/2010 2:16 AM
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Hi, ladies. Hope you're all doing well.
Toni: "Irishgirl- please do not give up hope, without it we are nothing."
My experience is that we are something without hope: bitter and alone. I know - I've been there too, and am still experiencing bouts of it. What is meant for my life if I'm not to be a mom? One thing I know is that life always keeps pressing forward, and whether the dream is realized or not, there will be other joys and happiness in my life. It may be a grieving process for me multiple times throughout my life, but I do know - and hope you do too - is that there is still beauty and joy whether we are moms or not. It's okay to be angry and to grieve. I wish your heart and soul healing and love.
Luci - I'm sorry to hear of your beta decline. I hope that it surges, too. Let us know.
Ladybug (that's my hubby's nickname for me!) - good luck. Sticky baby dust and hang in there for the 2ww. Grow ladybug jr!!
Not much new on the front with me. Hubby and I are having some severe conflict over old, reemerging patterns. I'm tired of them. One of my friends said, "When the two of you are on, there is no one else like you." That's true. When he's on, he's fabulous. But when he's off - wow. Almost like a totally different person. And he never notices that he's off - it's always me who has to start the prodding. Man, that gets old. I'm trying to cut out coffee. I love coffee. So I've switched to green tea in the mornings. But because of the conflicting research, I decided to try to stop drinking it for the next cycle in June.
Sending hugs out to you ladies in pain, confusion, and waiting. And to those of you who are happy, too.
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4/29/2010 9:23 PM
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Congrats Ladybug......I wish you good luck and baby dust. I will be testing just a few days before you so hopefully we will both be getting BFP's this month
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4/29/2010 8:05 PM
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Irishgirl- please do not give up hope, without it we are nothing. You must continue to dream and even if it takes us longer we will be blessed. I am sure of it God is good and he never lets us down. I have been working on this for 11 years and I refuse to lose hope.
Toni
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4/29/2010 8:03 PM
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Okay Ladybug..... Lots of prays are going to out little baby. Relax and you are pregnant until proven otherwise.
I am glad that the babies thawed well. I am also scared about my babies when it is time to unthaw!!!!
I hope I will be back in the game by september. I guess I could take this time to focus on being healthier and lose some weight.
Luci I am so sorry that the Beta is not working as it should but I am the eternal optimist and I will pray for a surge and better news.
Love Toni
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4/29/2010 7:42 PM
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Toni, sorry to hear about your job. That's tough, but try to keep positive and push forward.
Irishgirl - Sorry IVF didn't work this time around. But please don't lose hope. Your dreams will come true. We are here for you. Stay positive.
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4/29/2010 7:38 PM
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Hi, there! I'm back at home resting. All went well today. My embryo looks good. Stick, stick, stick!! I was very nervous about the thawing, wew, all is good. Pregnancy test is May 10... here I go on my 2ww.
luci - I hope you are doing ok.
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4/29/2010 3:45 PM
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Hi everyone-
Luci,I'm so sorry to hear that your beta is going down. This is such a tough process. I am thinking of you and hoping for the best.
I wish I had better news to report but my pregnancy test was a BFN. And no embryos to freeze. I am so depressed and discouraged. I tried so hard to do everything right. I did acupuncture, i stayed on bedrest for 4 days , I ate the pineapple, I took all my meds.... This is so hard. It has been 3 years of trying, with 2 unsuccessful IUIs and now 2 unsuccessful IVFS. I don't know if I can stay positive anymore. I am losing hope that this will ever work for us....
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4/29/2010 8:40 AM
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Hello Sisters,
I hope you are are well. I have been MIA because of so much with work. They have laid me off, so I am on hold for a while with my snow babies waiting for me!!! AHHHHH.
I started looking for a new job and I do not know what will happen.
Good luck my sisters that are waiting for results. Kisses to my nieces and future babies that will make me a happy happy Auntie.
Hoping please put all this things in the hands of God and talk talk talk to anyone that you feel will help you. You need to be enjoying this special miracle.
Jedi- I was thinking of your miracle the other day I am glad you are doing so well.
Wannabe- keep us posted I am praying so much for your success.
To everyone else keep the faith and never forget to love and live.
Love Toni
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4/29/2010 7:50 AM
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Good luck today Ladybug
Luci- I am sorry to hear you are in such limbo right now. I hope it turns out ok but if not we are all here for you.
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4/28/2010 11:25 PM
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Ladybug....Just wanted to say "good luck" one more time. I hope your FET goes smoothly and your emby nestles in quickly for a long 9 months! Let us know how things go. Drink lots of water, feet up, pineapple, etc. You know the drill. Wishing you the very best!
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4/28/2010 10:09 PM
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Luci - I'm thinking good thoughts for you and hoping things do turn around for you. Hang in there. I know these are tough times. I'll be thinking about you.
Ok, signing off... gotta a big day tomorrow. Love ya all!! Baby dust!!
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4/28/2010 4:55 PM
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Luci...so very sorry you are having to go through this and "not knowing" what is to happen. Will keep praying that things rebound for you and will be keeping you in my thoughts. Please keep us posted.
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4/28/2010 2:08 PM
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I went to the doctor today. They called a few hours ago. My beta actually dropped from145 to 138. He said that there is a chance that it could rebound, but it is unlikely. He said that I will probably miscarry. I go back on friday to see what my beta is doing. I just really thought that this was our happy ending finally. I guess I was wrong. I am trying to remain positive ,it is really hard.
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4/27/2010 10:15 PM
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Wannabe- Yes Chapel Hill is where I went. And I highly recommend them to ANYONE. I am so thankful to them for giving me a second chance at life. I hope it happens fast. Sorry the meds are not working as planned. Dont worry it will work just give it time.
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4/27/2010 8:28 PM
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Ladybug...PUPO is "pregnant until proven otherwise". Hope your beautiful emby nestles in happily!
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4/27/2010 7:34 PM
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Hi Ladies! Its been awhile since I posted on here. I have been waiting to start another IVF cycle since my last one was canceled. It took 61 days for me to get AF after my last cycle and I was really hoping to be pregnant naturally, but was disappointed again for the thousandth time!! I started birth control last Friday and will be on it for 2 weeks till I start Lupron.
Lucky3128 - it looks like we are starting a new IVF cycle at the same time....I really hope it works this time for both of us!!!
Welcome to all the newbies, and a big thank you to everyone for posting their stories...it really helps!!!
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4/27/2010 7:16 PM
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Wannabe - it is weird how the drugs don't always work the same each time. With my first IVF cycle I got I think 7 embryos. The second time, they increased my Lupron in hopes of recruiting more embryos and it worked just the opposite, I had 2 embryos so they flipped my cycle to an IUI. You just never know.
luci - hang in there, when do you go for another test?
Snowie - good luck with your 2ww - I'll be right there with you! Fortunately for you, you don't have to go on bed rest, you lucky girl. Since my bed rest will run into the weekend, I plan on taking one extra day and then back to work on Monday. My RE says take 3 days, I will do 4 in hopes of increasing my chance for implantation with my one beautiful lucky embryo. I wish I had a four-leaf clover right about now! Oh, and what is PUPO? I didn't see it on the list of abbrevations that were posted on here.
Nwells - sounds like you are in your own 2ww now for test results. Please let us know what they find, if anything at all. Hang in there, try to keep your mind off of it.
Anyhow, thanks for the positive thoughts. I will keep you posted.
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4/27/2010 4:46 PM
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Hello everyone,
Luci...will be eager to hear how things are going for you. Try not to stress about your numbers. Everyone's double at a different rate. I've know many women who start off slowely who go on to have totally normal preganancies and healthy babies. Will be thinking of you.
Snowie...nice to hear from you. I had a dentist appt. yesterday and was speaking to the dental assistant there. She mentioned that she wanted to have another baby but had her tubes tied years ago. She said she was investigating a place in NC....I asked "Chapel Hill" and she said yes. Isn't that where you went? Told her you had good things to say about them and we're all hoping you get a BFP soon! Small world, isn't it?
Went in today for another suppression check. Well, here in my 5th cycle, the Lupron did exactly the opposite of what it is supposed to do to me. For the first time, it "stimulated" my system. My estradial went from 116 last week to 243 this week. So, taking a trigger shot tomorrow to make me ovulate. Hopefully, that'll drop my estrogen. Will go in next week for a progesterone check. If that number is OK, will start back on Lupron again for 10-12 days and then check my baseline again. Crazy, huh? Now my FET has been moved back from the week of May 17 to the week of June 7th. Oh well, trying very hard to learn to just go with the flow. It's all in God's hands, not my control. Will keep you all posted.
Ladybug...wishing you the very, very best of luck with your FET later this week. I'll be praying for a big fat Positive for you!
Take care, gals!
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4/27/2010 1:25 PM
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hello ladies
this will be brief-
I am doing ok, the biopsy went well, hurt like a &IIIITCH!!!! they gave me a pill and it took a little of the edge off but I still felt the pain, I am crampy but not too bad!! I took the second one right after and went home and slept now it is just waiting for the results. I go on the MAy 14th to see how ALL our testing went. I am going to take a break until July unless i am told otherwise. My body is a compete mess, I can't sit from the progest shots, I am an emotional mess and so edgy, need Myrtle to come and my body to get it self back to normal- UGH If I was home and not at work right now I would be on a walking with my dog, crying my eyes out- you ask why a walk, because eventually the walking helps me sort out why I am crying and I usually come back feeling soooo much better!!! Instead I am at work, and writing you all to keep myself from breaking down and balling my eyes out, I am on verge of tears every second and my students know I am not myself today!!!! must be the lack of hormones in my system or something!!!
Luci- relax and take it easy, hopefully it turns out for the best!!! I am pulling for you.
Everyone else, have a great day, rest up and I will talk to you all soon.
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4/27/2010 10:26 AM
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Good luck to all of you going through your procedures and 2ww.
We are finally ready to start IVF again after having our last cycle canceled. Which was also our 1st. I started my BCP yesterday. So I will be on them for about a month. We are doing a very different drug regimen this time around. I will only be a very watered down version of Lupron for 2 days twice a day before I start the stimulation drugs. So they don't want to suppress my body very much. So that is good a week and a half less of shots! Yeah!!! So I will starting stims May 29thand egg retrieval will be 2nd week of June. I am so ready to get started again and get through this. I just want it to be over with!
For those of you who have gotten pregnant thank you so much for coming back and sharing your stories. It really does give me hope that this can work!
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4/27/2010 7:29 AM
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Hoping- ML = Make Love. It is good that you have an understanding doctor. I will keep you in my thoughts. Yes I am only 3DPO so I wont be Testing till at least the middle of next week. But it is a good feeling knowing we have a chance every month again rather than the one try at IVF (or more if you have frozen). I only wish we would have researched the TR more but oh well we tried. and we will keep trying
Luci- hang in there I agree with Hoping things could change...stranger things have happened.
Ladybug- Only a couple more days and you will be PUPO!!!
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4/26/2010 11:18 PM
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Luci - I am so sorry to hear about your beta numbers, but don't give up. Weird/unexplained things can happen sometimes. Also, with my current pregnancy my numbers did not double between my first and second test and I am 22 weeks along with a healthy baby girl. Good luck to you, keep your thoughts positive and keep us posted.
Jedi - congrates on the genetic testing going well. I did genetic testing as well, but only blood work and ultrasounds (2 rounds of blood work and 2 ultrasounds). They take all the info and combine it together and then give you results. Everything is completely healthy with my little girl too. The only weirdness was a protein that they test for that comes from the baby. My numbers came back higher than normal. I have been trying not to think about that because everything else has been going good thus far. What is your exact due date? Mine is August 31st. Do you have any names picked out yet?
Wannabe - Thanks for the well wishes and encouragement. My doc is so sick of getting emails from me, but I emailed her last week and told her I needed to come in just to hear the baby's heartbeat and she made an appointment for me that afternoon. She is being very understanding. You are correct about the proteins in the urine. They test me for that every time I go to the OB, but the proteins that came back high are proteins that the baby makes. I have no idea how they can tell the difference in my blood between my blood work and the baby's, but somehow they do (amazing).
Snowie - Nice to see you. I am trying so very hard to enjoy the pregnancy, but I have to take it minute by minute. I see the doc on Wednesday. I am sure after that appointment I will have a few "up" days. You are on you 2WW? When will you test? What does ML stand for?
To all others. I am sending baby dust your way....
Hey - has anyone heard from movan or Toni?
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4/26/2010 1:54 PM
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I am having a bad day. I went in for blood work today. The doctor just called back with the results. Since friday my beta only went from 107 to 145. The doctor is concerned , so I have to go back for more bloodwork on Wed. They kept telling me that if I have any bleeding or cramping to call. I am really scared. I really thought that this was finally it, our happy ending. The nurse just didn't sound very optimistic. I just don't know what to do.
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4/26/2010 12:13 PM
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I've been reading your posts the last few days and want to join in...I had my first IVF cycle 6 years ago, which was unsuccessful, adopted 2 boys 5 years ago and now we're trying IVF again. I had my baseline on Sunday, start the drugs on Thursday. I always feel so alone in my journey with no one to talk to that really gets it. A very good friend of mine has a 6 mo old baby boy from IVF, I'm going to the same center she went to - I just don't get to talk to her very often.
It's nice to come here and see a sisterhood of support and encouragement. I've had to go through a lot to get to this point of my cycle, including finding out I have Hydrosalpinx (blocked & fluid filled tube) and having the Essure procedure done (tubes sealed with coils). I knew I had blocked tubes from a major surgery when my appendix ruptured, but just finding out about the fluid and having to have a procedure to seal my tubes (it's actually permanent birth control) was hard because it was like letting go of the hope my husband and I had for years that maybe we would be blessed with a miracle and get pregnant on our own. Now I'm 38 and I've let go of that hope, but I'm really excited knowing that we have more than 1 try at this and still very hopeful that we'll get to have a baby. I pray the best for all of you!
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4/26/2010 1:52 AM
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Hello Mommies and Future Mommies,
It has been a couple months since I posted and thought I should say hello, and let those who remember me some updated news. Anybody remember me? I've checked in a few times but it seems not enough to keep up. I see some new names and stories - welcome to the forum; and it is nice to see some very familiar names.
I'm now 25 weeks pregnant and doing fairly well considering some minor complications. For those newbies here: yes, it is still possible to get pregnant with IVF at advanced age (now 44) with your own eggs and still not miscarry. Supposedly my chances were about 5% which did not even figure in my husband's fertility issues, but I thought that someone makes up those small percentage points, and it could be me. Our gamble finally worked. We are expecting our little girl in early August and she is already kicking and pushing hard enough to keep me from sleeping.
This forum is full of wonderful but also sorrow filled stories. Our ladies here are so supportive, while many going through some of the most long, empty, and seemingly unfair times in their lives. It is difficult to read about the turmoil, but the information can be valuable. Perhaps I can be an inspiration and a help. I certainly don't intend to make anyone feel bad about their unsuccessful and heartbreaking attempts (I've had enough of my own), but just not to give up hope too soon.
hoping2Bmommy: Congratulations. You are just a few weeks earlier along than I and we are both expecting girls! I completely understand your anxiety, but mine had been a bit different. In February I had an amniocentesis because of my advanced maternal age (we knew the risks going in to this). Before IVF, I knew that I was going to have to wait until at least 16 weeks of pregnancy for an "all-clear" chromosomal analysis report. I have had amniocentesis performed before and knew what to expect, but this time it was an agonizing 10 day wait with markers possibly indicating chromosomal abnormalities. My emotions ran the gamut: why now after coming this far, why me, there is no god, I can't bear these decisions, helplessness, anger, weird nightmares, uncontrollable crying, convincing myself of the worst so it somehow it won't be, and a whole mess of other horrible indescribable emotions only reserved for the hardest times of our lives. I don't know if this would be helpful at all, but just know that there are others that can have a hard time dealing with perplexing emotions. Get help if you think you need it and understand that you are not alone. I think many people are embarrassed of their thoughts or anxieties, think nobody wants to hear from the crazy hormonal lady, or they just forget. Hang in there! By the way, the report was all good - I almost fainted.
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4/25/2010 10:44 PM
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Whats POAS? I looked for it on the list, but didn't see it.
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