7/7/2010 10:40 PM
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Ladies - thank you for your encouragement...it means a lot!! This MC has hit me hard emotionally and I'm trying not to be bitter. It seems that once a week another one of my friends gets pregnant...no problem. I am trying to stay sane and not totally lose it. I am soooo very scared to do a FET cycle and have it fail too.
How long after a MC can you do a FET cycle? Why do some take Lupron, etc... and others no drugs? My RE said that I would not be taking anything....I'm kinda finding that strange. Any thoughts???
Thank you again!!
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7/7/2010 10:01 AM
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hello ladies,
Hope everyone had a great 4th, my vacation was good, busy, but relaxing just the same.
Aga- I am so sorry I hope you are doing ok
IVFmom- stay positive, you have two little beans in there, send that energy to keep them growing!!!
cristeen7- been there three times, so I know what you are going through, my last one was in Feb, my body is enjoying the break and I hope I can get my mind in a really good place so the next time it works!!! hang in there.
Smiles- congrats on your little boy!
Snowie I hope this is it for you and it works!!! don't keep testing, it will make you nuts!!! I have sworn that I will never do a pee test again!!! especially after last month when I was a week late!! I hate them!!!
Do those of you in your 2ww or just starting good luck, my thoughts are with you, I hope to start in August, who knows though!!
As for me, I am going through the motions of not wanting to even bother any more. My sister in law has been kind of trying to get pregnant from over a year now, but she is now obsessing about having kids and letting everyone know when their "time" is. Last month she assumed because they had "a lot" baby making love she was all set, ,so when her monthly arrived she was upset because she assumed it would just work, I told her that it just doesn't work out that way. Well they went to FL with us and they were letting everyone know they are going at it again. Yeah Thanks don't need to know when you and your husband are making woopie!! She will probably get prego with out a problem, it is almost like she is making more of a deal of it then needs to be, Guess I am just a little sensitive to the whole thing for what ever reason. God Bless me if they get pregnant because I won't hear the end of it for 9 months, then when the baby comes forget it. UGH!!!! But watching her I don't know I never really obsessed over it, we tried, I thought there was and issue and there was, here we are over 3 years later and still nothing, I just don't know, If my RE suggests the Lupron thing I may just be done because what if it still doesn't work after that . I put my body through that for what!!! I have been going through Acupuncture and noticed that my mind is more relaxed, or just numb to the whole thing, don't know right now I am in a I don't care mode. Well thanks ladies for listening-
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7/6/2010 5:17 PM
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Quick Update: We saw 1 strong heartbeat in the smaller sac (ha..the one I was worried about) and 1 faint heartbeat in the larger sac. I am still very positive both of my little blueberries will continue to develop. I won't find out bloodwork results until tomorrow but I'm not worried regardless. My faith lies in God to give me what I need. No more and no less.
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7/6/2010 5:08 PM
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Update: Started Lupron and I am currently on day 7 still no side effects. Can anyone share with me their experiece with Lupron and when their side effects started? =)
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7/6/2010 3:41 PM
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Best of luck Luci, Lucky, Snowie, and Praying...will be praying for everyone to have that BFP!!
As for me, I'm still struggling with that BFN. Can't believe how hard this has hit both of us. The huge bills are rolling in for this cycle and we are really scraping to pay them and we don't have anything to show for it. So not fair..I really want to feel better...been trying to get out and enjoy summer and not focus on the negative. I find myself thinking "i would be 4 wks pg, the U/S and hearing the heartbeat would be soon". It really is difficult to deal with something when we don't know why it didn't work. Even though we knew the odds, it is still so hard when it really doesn't work!! I am also VERY frustrated that my RE never even called me since the negative result. She should have called me!!! This is such a costly, long, difficult road the least she could've done was give me a call to say "sorry it didn't work, I'll be looking things over." I have decided to consult with another RE, still with the Cleveland Clinic, but at Beechwood instead of downtown. I just feel it's good patient care after we've spent 30k and over a year- a phone call isn't too much to ask.
Anyway, that's my rant for the day. Our appt isn't until Aug 16th. I have questions and wonder how we should proceed. We have three frosties but I'm not sure we want to go right back to another cycle. There's so much to worry about...will they survive the thaw?? I have a bunch of extra weight on, had it to start with and added to it with all the cycles so I'm concerned about that as well. It is so darn hard to lose!!! Take care everyone!!!!
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7/6/2010 7:48 AM
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Thanks Ladybug....Good luck to you also. I am 12dpo and BFN this morning but my temps are different than they have ever been so IDK I guess I just have to wait till Thursday and see what happens...thats when the witch is due to appear.
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7/5/2010 4:09 PM
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Hi all. Hope everyone had a good weekend.
I would like to say congratulations to all that have had success, good luck to those who are currently in a cycle, and my sympathy to you that have had loss.
I have not posted for quite a while, but I have been reading all the posts. I did IVF#1 in February, got BFN. Had labroscopic surgery for endometriosis in April. I am currently in IVF#2, awaiting ER on Wednesday. Ultrasound this morning showed 11 good follicles. Doing ICSI with donor sperm this time. I am praying that all goes good and I can get a BFP!!!!
Good luck to all!!
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7/4/2010 11:04 PM
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agahope- I am so sorry for your loss. I know there are no words to make it better.
I haven't posted in awhile, I read all your post though. I am currently in a frozen cycle. I started the Lupron on june 20th. I am taking estrace 3 times a day. I go in for my lining check on July 12th. I am hoping that the transfer happens on the 18th or later , but during that week because my husband is on vacation from work that week. I just hope that it works and that this time we get a happy ending. I just don't know how many more losses I can go through before I crack. I am trying not to get too stressed out. Around when I started the Lupron my mom went to the er and ended up getting transferred to get a heart cath done. She ended up with a stent. She had an 80% blockage in one of the three main arteries. She is fine now. She had the same thing happen in May 2009. I am trying not to worry but I couldn't handle if something happened to her. My dad just died of a heart attack in October. I am trying not to feel stressed about everyone wanting to know when I am going to have a baby. The families are understanding to a point. My mom has been really great. I kind of feel a little bit of pressure that this has to work so my mom can have something happy to look forward to after this crappy year.
I don't know if it is a bad omen but if this cycle works , if we go by my period my tentative due date is April 3. It is the date the we found out the baby had died with my first pregnancy 5 years ago. I am just rambling. I am really good at making myself crazy. I have tried to pray but I am still really angry at god for this last year and a half and every time I pray the exact opposite seems to happen. Sorry to vent and ramble. I guess I am more stressed than I realized.
Baby dust to all.
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7/4/2010 7:17 PM
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Snowie - Good luck this month. Perhaps it will be lucky for the both of us. I am starting clomid this month, 2 pills days 5-9 of my cycle. I am expecting AF in the next couple of days.
Agahope - sorry for your loss. I know your pain. Hang in there, grieve and take care of you.
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7/3/2010 10:24 AM
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Congrats smiles! That is amazing news! I guess that what they say is true some times when you have given up hope that you will get pregnant on your own.
IVF2mom - I think you have an amazing attitude. Your right if you get 1 than you are still blessed. That is usually what the RE wants anyway is to get 1 viable pregnancy. But I hope everything works out for you!
Ladies I am almost through week 1 of my 2ww. I just keep telling myself to be patient and give it to God. There is nothing I can do but take care of myself, and science has done all it can do. Now it's up to God, and believe me I have been praying a lot. And I do have many people who are praying for me as well. This has been such a long process that so many people know what we are doing now. I wasn't sure about telling people at first but I decided that I didn't want to go through this alone. So I am very blessed to have my family, friends, and a lot of my church family praying for me. I have seen so many miracles happen through prayer at my church so I know that they can happen. I was so angry with God for a long time but I decided that it was OK he will forgive me because he loves me. So I have been praying through this whole cycle and so far he has answered every one of them. So I just need one more prayer answered.
Sorry ladies for the emotional rant, but I feel this is the place I can talk about things like this, becasue you all understand. And i am praying for all of you as well.
Good luck to everyone and have a happy 4th!
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7/2/2010 9:59 PM
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Congrats Smiles. I sent a FB request ... I cant wait to see your bundle of joy. Awesome news.
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7/2/2010 2:47 PM
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Wanna - I am happy to share info but I do recall this site having some privacy issues but you can e-mail me at theels@gmail.com or if you facebook then I believe my profile is facebook.com/jennt
Thank You very much for your kind words, I really appreciate them because I know sometimes it is not that easy
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7/2/2010 2:03 PM
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Smiles.....Sincere & warmest congratulations to you, your husband, and welcome to your precious little boy. That is such wonderful news! I hope your delivery went easily and without complication. It's an amazing thing to hold your child in your arms...I do remember that feeling and it is the most wonderful thing on earth. Would love to hear his name or see a photo if you are ever so inclined. Have a wonderful weekend with your new son and again, best wishes to you all. You got the prize!!!! XO WBM
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7/2/2010 1:31 PM
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Hi Ladies,
Just wanted to share with you that our little "miracle" showed up on Monday (just about a week early) It is a boy and he is just amazing with his red hair & blue eyes - we just stare at him all the time!
this is a feeling & experience that I pray all of you will have very soon - you all deserve it more than anyone...you are strong women & I will keep praying for you...
Good Luck & stay POSITIVE
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7/1/2010 2:05 PM
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@mablackie & wannabe, did you all have a conference with my DH last night or this morning. Thank you for your kind words and support. You are absolutely right. I'm doing much better and planning on focusing on what I know today. Today I saw 2 little sacs and I'm going to enjoy that moment until another ultrasound tells me otherwise.
@BC, welcome and Godspeed with this cycle. Ask yourself what really can you control? If there is nothing you can do then let it go and let your RE and body do what they know how to do. I hope this helps allthough I know it's easier said than done.
@btobe, sounds like you are off to a good new start. Godspeed
AFM, I'm going to patiently await my u/s Tuesday. If one little sweet pea decided not to stay, then I know he/she wanted to stay with my Mom and Sister (they must have been already spoiling him/her) LOL
Happy 4th of July gang!
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7/1/2010 12:44 PM
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Hi ladies....
mablackie...good to hear from you. You are getting so close to your due date. Hope all is going well and please be sure and let us know when the big event happens.
BC....welcome to the forum. Don't think I've seen you here before. I am very sorry about the losses you have experienced in the past, especially your twins at 11 weeks. I lost twin boys earlier this year at nearly 23 weeks and I know it is so very devastating. Because you have had 4 losses in the past, I am wondering if you have ever been tested for any thrombophilia or immune issues? If not, I would highly suggest that you speak to your RE immediately to get tested. They are simple blood tests that can tell us so much about why we lose our pregnancies. I was not tested until after I lost my boys. Turns out I have 2 blood clotting disorders (antithrombin III and MTHFR). Both cause my blood to clot too much. Pathology showed that my placentas developed blood clots basically cutting down blood flow to the babies and thus put me in preterm labor. It can also be a cause of why some women don't conceive or often miscarry. Of course, most RE's will attribute miscarriage prior to 12 weeks to chromosomal issues...which it often is. But, it never hurts to be armed with information so thought I would suggest the blood tests to you. Either way, welcome and I hope your next cycle is the magic one!
ivf2....try not to worry about your beta numbers at this point. As mablackie said, the numbers are more crucial at the very beginning to show that your pregnancy is viable and progressing as it should. You'll soon have your next u/s and will feel so much better. Remember, most women get pregnant and never even get a beta number to worry about. When we go through IVF, we get overloaded with information which is sometimes good, but sometimes also causes us to worry when we need not. Hang in there. As for the peas in the pod, I remember exactly that u/s photo where my two little ones looked just like peas in the pod. Very cool. It only gets better.
btobe....good to hear from you again and to know that you'll be cycling again soon. I will be transferring in mid-late August. Good luck to you.
Hope everyone has a great 4th of July weekend planned. Will be talking to you soon.
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7/1/2010 7:51 AM
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praying-at my first OB appointment I did not get an ultrasound. However, my first OB appointment was not until 10 weeks. At 10 weeks they heard the heartbeats with the Doppler machine. My OB said that after hearing the heartbeats (not just seeing it) greatly reduces your chances of miscarriage. We told people after this 10 week appointment. Since you may be too early to hear the heartbeats, see if they can quickly give you an ultrasound to put your mind at ease. After all you've been though, you deserve it!
IVF2-I have heard that HCG numbers do not matter at first after the first few days. I know that you want them to double right away. That is a sign of a good pregnancy. I don't know of this is normal or not, but my doctor tested my HCG levels the day I found out i was pregnant and then again 2 days later. I went in at exactly 5 weeks to get my progesterone levels tested and he also tested my HCG levels, but didn't seem as concerned with them. I never got my HCG levels tested again because he said that they didn't matter as much after the first few days of doubling. So I basically got my HCG levels tested 3 times total. So try not to worry too much about the numbers. The important thing will be the 6 week ultrasound where you can usually see a heartbeat.
Wannabe-I am so glad you are going for it again! You were such a motivator to me and I know you are to other women too. Good luck wtih this cycle. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Snowie-I too believe in all of these signs. I had tons when I got pregnant with my twins. The day I went in for my retriveal the nurse had the same name as my mom. Then when I went in for the transfer they asked if we minded if nursing students could come watch. We said yes. One of the girl's names was Kiley, which is my favorite girl's name and one of the names we might choose if we have a girl. Then at my 6 week appointment and my first ultrasound, I knew it would be twins. It was my dad's birthday. I say things look good for you this month!!!
Agahope-I am so sorry for your loss. I know the many of us on this board have been through miscarriages. It sucks, especially after all we've been through to get pregnant. There are no words to describe how you feel. Know that you have support here. Keep trying, it can work! I got pregnant a few months after my miscarriage.
I still highly recommend the book "Conqueing Infertility" by Alice Domar. It is a great book on how to relax through this whole process.
Good luck to you all! It is possible. Stay positive!
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6/30/2010 9:38 PM
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We are on day 2 of BCP in prep for our 2nd IVF.
We were successful last year and carried our twins to 11 weeks before losing them for unknown reasons. We have been ttc for 13 years and have lost 4 babies during that time.
I only have 1 ovary and didn't respond well last year (we only had 6 eggs, transferred 2 and none left to freeze). My biggest worry is that we won't have any eggs/embryos. I am having a hard time letting go of the control and just relaxing through this process. Any suggestions?
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6/30/2010 7:57 PM
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Hi ladies. Sorry that I have been MIA for a for a while, but I have been keeping up with everyone's posts.
Well as you all know, I had a BFP on our first IVF try in May only to miscarry at 5 1/2 weeks. Since then we have been trying to recover emotionally, and preparing for our FET cycle. I am currently on BCP, and start my lLuprontomorrow. I am super excited to be starting again, but at the same time, I am scared. I recently started fertility yoga, and reflexology...I am hoping that both with help my embies stick and grow. I watched a special on the fertility yoga on TV, and then did a little bit of research on it. The DVD that I purchased has different routines for the 4 different phases of a cycle. I have no idea what the success rates are with the yoga, but at this point I am willing to do anything to get a BFP again. As far as the reflexology goes, I go every two weeks, and the reflexologist works on the parts of my feet that are connected with the reproductive system. Reflexology uses a lot of the same pressure points in the feet as acupuncture, and is supposed to increase circulation. It really has seemed to jump start things this cycle and I seem to be more relaxed. My transfer is scheduled for the first week of August. Is anyone else cycling about that same time?
To all those cycling right now, pregnant, or awaiting test results, stay positive and keep the faith! It will work, and will all be worth it!
To all those who are struggling... you are not alone. I am right there with you and you are all in my prayers! I know we don't understand it yet, but this will make us stronger!! We need to stay positive and use this to grow with God! I keep telling myself that this all will make me a better mommy!
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6/30/2010 3:13 PM
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Ladies, I'm having a nervous breakdown. In 5 days my beta #s have slown down tremendously. They haven't started dropping but they only went up a few hundred points from last Thursday to this Tuesday. From 1390 to 1726. I know it doesn't mean anything but you know my mind is all over the place. I'm praying both babies keep growing.
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6/30/2010 12:19 PM
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@ivf2mom & praying4amiracle --- Enjoy your pregnancy journey and hopefully I will be following soon :-)
@luckie -- good luck in your 2ww -- remember PUPO :-)
Update on us -- we had our follow-up meeting with the RE to discuss where do we go from here and we have decided to move forward with a second cycle. She reassured us that we did the right thing by doing a D3 last time, especially seeing that we only had 2 embies and they were only 6-cell. Of course, there is no way she could tell us why they didn't implant, but more than likely it was because there was some chromosomal (sp) deficiency and they stopped dividing, and had nothing to do with the edno lining. She did say that they normally prefer to do D3 with an 8-cell embie, but have had success with transferring 4 or 6 cell ones before; ours were just a bit slower - hence D3 with 6-cells.
My "cocktail" will be changing this time so that we can ramp up my response and hopefully egg production. She will be putting me on BCP for a month, then we will start the stims. She is also changing my Lupron to a different dose & formula, as well as upping my follistim from 400 to 600. I was stimulated for 10 days, and she says we may increase that to either 11 or 12 days, depending on how I respond.
We now need to decide if we want to start immediately or wait awhile. If we decide to start immediately, I wll need to schedule my sono for this Friday to make sure that I don't have any cysts from this last round, and start the BCP, so that stims, ER and ET would happen in August. If we wait, then I won't need to have my sono until the cycle prior to starting the stims. I am of course leaning towards starting immediately as my age is against us.
It's times like these I wish I was back in my 20's or early 30's :-)
Baby dust to all....
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6/29/2010 8:27 PM
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I finally got my 1st OBGYN appt after waiting for my records to get to my new doc. Its set for July 6. I'm so . I'm not sure what will get done for this 1st visit. I'm hoping for another US . I had my last one on June 21st at my last RE visit. I was 6w5d at the time.
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6/29/2010 5:16 PM
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Well ladies, there are 2 gestational sacs. I could even see the little sweet peas in each one. Next U/S next week, I'm hoping we can at least see a heartbeat. I'm excited and extremely nervous at the same time. I wanna cry tears of joy and fear.
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6/29/2010 10:02 AM
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Hi Ladies -
IVF2mom - good luck with your US that is so exciting!
cristeen - I hoe you are feeling better soon. Good luck with the frozen.
agahope - I am so sorry for your lose. I cant imagine what that would feel like, but I agree with the other ladies getting a positive and then going through that would be devastating. Prayers are with you.
So I had my ET yesterday. They transferred 3 embryos back. (Wannabe) in response to your question about why they didnt do a 5 day transfer. They told me that because I only had 6 eggs they didnt want to take a chance that they would stop dividing on day 4 or 5. Your body can be a better environment for the embryos to grow. So on day 3 the embryos are supposed to be at 8 cells. We had 3 at 8 cells 2 of which were good quality with only 5% fragmentation which they said was normal. The 3rd embryo was also 8 cells and good quality but had about 20% fragmentation. And he said they were all symmetrical. So I hope that we can get at least one healthy baby out of the 3 they put in. We don't have any to freeze so that was disappointing. The embryologist thought that out of the 2 7 cells and one 6 cell we had left that only 1 of them had a 30% chance of making it. So rather than freezing one embryo that only had a 30% chance of getting to blast stage we opted to get a refund for that procedure.
So even though I was disappointed that we didn't have any to freeze I feel very blessed that we have the 3 embryos that we do and they were good quality. So I am in my 2ww and I go for a beta test July 12th. So i am saying lots of prayers, taking it easy and eating my pineapple.
Good luck to everyone!
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6/29/2010 8:10 AM
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Good morning ladies, all is well with me. I have my 5 week ultrasound today and I can not wait. I pushed it to the afternoon so my RE could do it. I'm very excited.
Big Hug to the BFN!
Sticky Vibes to those in the 2ww or in the middle of a cycle!
Cheers & Support to those preparing to try this again!
@agahope, you have my prayers and total sympathy. I can not imagine how you must feel and I am really sorry you have to endure such pain. Hang in there sweetie.
Have a blessed day!
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6/28/2010 7:00 PM
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@agahope -- I am so sorry to read about your m/c. Please know that my prayers are with you during this time. I concur with cristeen -- having had a BFN, in no way compares to what you must be going through right now. Please don't give up hope.
@cristeen -- my cycle started yesterday and it was an emotional/depressing day as I kept thinking - I wasn't supposed to be seeing this for 9 mths !! My Dr. did warn me that it was going to be painful and heavier than usual and she was so right. I have been popping pain killers every 4 hours. The only good thing, is some of my bloating has gone down, and once I get over these cramps, I am going to play tennis -- which is my stress reliever.
@wannabe -- thanks for your words. We have an appt on Wednesday with the Dr to discuss what just happened and next steps. We can only afford one more cycle, so we want to make the best of this.
Baby dust to all.
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6/28/2010 4:38 PM
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agahope- I am very sorry to hear your news. I know you must be completely devastated. I wish I could say something to make you feel better... just know I am thinking of you and your husband and wishing for positive things in the future.
cristeen- I was thinking how hard it must be for you to go to work and be surrrounded by babies! Stay strong girl!
I am still in the waiting game, doing a million blood tests. New doc wants to re-test everything at his lab, even tests we have already done. I have to get my butt to uptown NYC on thursday to see a hematologist because I had positive tests for MTHFR and PAI 1 mutations in the past. This one is $700 and doesn't take insurance. Last time we saw RE he was debating IUI vs IVF . I think I am going to push for IVF because I dont know how much more of this I can take, if we only have one more cycle we might as well go all in and go for IVF.
Baby dust to all!
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6/28/2010 3:06 PM
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agahope...I'm so sorry for what you are going through. Getting a BFN is bad enough but getting the BFP and being on top of the world only to have m/c has to be devastating. I will definitely be saying some prayers for you.
Wannabe..Thanks for your comments. I have 3 snowbabies...2 at cleavage and 1 blast. Not sure how soon I can do this again, though. Emotionally, I am still pretty raw. This weekend was difficult. Tried to make the best of it, took the family to the waterpark. Decided I would do some things I wouldn't probably do if I was pg. We had fun..got way too much sun! AF came and it has been really painful. The cramps have been really strong. Spent from yesterday at 5p until just now in bed. Feeling drained, ouchy, depressed, etc. We'll see what happens. You're right, though...I thought I had such a better chance making the decision to go with a donor. I feel like I was realistic, though. I knew there was no guarantee. Still really don't know what to think. Been reading that when implantation doesn't occur, it has to do with the embies the majority of the time and not the uterine lining. The embies don't continue dividing for whatever reason. As I said, we are getting another opinion Aug 16. Just want to make sure there isn't anything else we should be doing. Been trying to exercise some and drop some of this awful weight...I had some extra on when I started and this process sure didn't help. Like I said, I still don't know what to think!
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6/28/2010 1:27 PM
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agahope10: soooo sorry to hear the news. I truly know how you feel I was pregnant and then had it taken from me. I was mad at the world and so hurt that it happened. I can tell you it does get better though. I was told that I would need to use a donor and it was like someone was telling me again I could not be a mom but with the help of the ladies in this forum I changed my mind. I am now trying to figure a way to pay for the next try and hopefully it will work with younger eggs since Dr says my 39 year old eggs are so old. I will keep you in my prayers.
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6/28/2010 1:14 PM
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Bad news....my beta number fell to 47. I definitely miscarried. I am a complete sobbing mess right now and have no hope of ever getting pregnant. I don't think I can go through all this again to only be disappointed. I am so very angry! Sorry ladies!
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6/28/2010 6:16 AM
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Oh....my antral follicle count AFC was not done until cycle day 16. Could that be why my follicle count was only a total of 9? It is to my understanding the AFC should be done on cycle day 3.
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6/28/2010 1:09 AM
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I had my US, mapping, blood work, and hysteroscopy last wednesday. RE stated everything looked great. 5 follies on the left 4 on the right but there was a cyst obstructing the view on the right side. RE stated the cyst was more that likely the cause of my previous cramping and that this was normal and should go away as I continue birth control. I start Lupron this thursday. =0)
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6/27/2010 6:25 PM
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3DPO for me today. 2nd month of Clomid. I ovulated right on target on CD16 after taking it days 3-7. My hubby doesnt know I took it his month nor did I tell him when I ovulated we just did the deed whenever with no pressure so I am hoping that is all its gonna take. My grandfather passed away some time ago on July 4th but its always a painful day for me because he was the only person in the world I could truly count on. Well on the 4th I will be 10DPO so I am gonna test I know it may be too early but it would be awesome to get a BFP that day. Now what I am about to say sounds silly but a few weeks ago I had a dream that my grandpa came to me and he told me he was sending me my angel baby. So this month feels really lucky for me. It all felt VERY real so I just hold my hopes that this is my month. I put my ovulation date in one of those pregnancy calendars and got an EDD of 3/17/2011 and when you look at the calendar it say I can find out the baby's sex on 9/27 which happens to be my birthday so this month for conception seems to be VERY lucky LOL. Heres hoping.
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6/26/2010 1:15 PM
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Good afternoon, ladies. Hope everyone has a nice weekend planned.
Nurho....very sorry to hear about your BFN. It doesn't get any easier to hear the news but I always feel better once I have a new plan worked out. Good luck to you and again, I'm sorry this time didn't work.
Cristeen....you've been on my mind daily and I was wondering how you were doing. When we go to DE we think there is no way it cannot happen, unfortunately, that isn't always true. Try not to be discourage about going forward with your frozen embies though. Many women get pregnant from FET's. I'll be thinking about you and praying the very best for you. Hope you can cycle again soon.
agahope.....very scary to hear what's going on with you. Know the weekend must feel long & torturous. Will be eager to hear on Monday how things are. Will be praying for you too.
Lucky....GREAT fertilization report! Don't think I've ever heard of someone having all of the eggs fertilize so that is a great sign. Age is definitely on your side as well so that is good news. Curious why they've already decided to do a Day 3 transfer rather than wait to see if you make it to blast stage. Doctors are always changing things up so sure they have their reasons. Congrats and best of luck to you!
Smiles & mablackie....you are both almost there! Very exciting. A girlfriend of mine in the UK is being induced today. She didn't do fertility treatments, but suffered 6 miscarriages (all around 12 wks) prior to this pregnancy so I am so excited for her to deliver a full term baby soon. Hope things continue to go easy breezy for you both! Keep us posted. Did either of you ever find out the genders of the babies?
Epilady, thanks for asking about my meeting. You are sweet to remember. Had a long one with the RE and then the financial gal. Going straight back into cycle this month. No BCP this time just starting Lupron on Day 21. Will have my FET the week of August 16th. (Ironically, my donor had her ER last August 19th). Excited and a bit guarded in my emotions. My DH says this is it....I won't be ready to give up so we'll see. Just praying the FET works (40/60 success rate) so that I don't have to try to drag him back to the "bank account well" to keep draining it.
Ivf2....sounds like all is good for you. Enjoy every minute. As you can see from all that goes on here, you've been given a major blessing!
Take good care girls and I'll talk with you later.
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6/26/2010 12:17 PM
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Hi ladies -
I am a bit more with it today. And my pain is not as bad. I received great news this morning. All 6 of my eggs fertilized!!!! The embryologist said yesterday that my eggs looked good and he was going to be happy if 4 fertilized. So they are really happy that all 6 did! So I just need them to keep growing! I was nervous that I would lose half in the fertilization process, because I know that is very common. But the nurse told me that I really have my age on my side, I am 30. The plan is to do a 3 day transfer on Monday at 11:00 with 3 embryos. So I am praying that they continue to grow!Thank you ladies for all the support!
BTW I wanted to add that they ICSI all of them. So I don't know if that helped contribute to them all fertilizing.
Cristeen - you were right I guess it is all about quality then quantity.
Nurho - So sorry about your BFN! They say that the RE's learn a lot from going through a cycle and they can take that info to adjust their protocols for the next time. Good luck!
Good luck to Smiles and Mablackie sounds like you are almost there. It's good to hear that this can work.
agahope - I really hope that everything turned out OK for you and that you are feeling better.
IVF2mom - Keep up those numbers! Still sounds like twins to me.
Good luck to everyone and have a nice weekend!
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6/26/2010 7:21 AM
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For you ladies who got a BFN these past couple of weeks, hang in there!!! One thing I can say about that is now your RE knows so much more about your cycle. He knows how you'll respond to the amount of drugs he put you on, he know approximately how many eggs you create, how they fertilize, he also has ideas on what to do different. I know so many girls who's first and even 2nd cycle didn't work. But once their doctor figured out their cycle, they got a BFP. I did 3 failed IUI's before my first IVF. The one good thing about all of them is my doctor did learn a lot about how I responded to the drugs. After my first IVF transfer my doctor did tell me that if this one did't work, he knew how my husband's sperm could fertilize my eggs and how they grew, which increased my chances even more after my first IVF. So hang in there! Good luck!!!
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6/25/2010 10:19 PM
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Lucky what happened was when they did your U/S you had nine follies but not every follicle has an egg in it. I had like 15 follies and only retrieved 10 eggs. Good luck though still sounds like a good number to me.
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6/25/2010 8:03 PM
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Lucky...I'm crossing my fingers for ya!! Glad everything went well. Like I was told...it is about quality not quantity!
IVFmom...congrats...what an exciting time!
nurho I'm right there with you. Still feeling pretty up and down about the BFN. Feeling crampy so I'm sure AF on her way which feels so sad to me. Wasn't suppose to deal with her for 9 months. Went back to work last night ..it was rougher than I expected- I work labor and delivery. I have alot of good friends there who know what I went through this week so that helped. It was hard telling everyone it didn't work. Just feel overwhelming feelings of loss...didn't expect those feelings to be so strong. Still look at the picture of the embies and feel like I let them down. Just trying to get through it. I have an appt Aug 16th with a new doc at the same clinic for a second opinion..have 3 snowbabies but feeling a little "gun shy".
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6/25/2010 7:30 PM
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Hi everyone going to make this quick. Had my ER today. They only got 6 eggs which earlier in the week I had 9. So I am not sure what happened between now and then. I really hope they do well and were good quality. They will call tomorrow morning and let me know. I am just so nervous.
BTW you were right I was completely out and don't remember a thing! My tummy hurts but I figured it would. Going back to bed to rest.
Thanks for the support!
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6/25/2010 6:51 PM
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Hi everyone...thanks for your prayers and words of comfort. Yesterday was extremely emotional with lots of tears, but doing better today with a more positive outlook. My DH and I have decided to try another cycle and will be scheduling an appt for sometime next week to talk about everything with the RE -- what happened, how long should we wait, what will/should we do differently, etc.
@epilady - you are correct, I did a day 3 transfer with 2 perfect 6-cell embryos. Assisted hatching was used I think based on my age (38) upon consultation between the RE and the embryologist. Out of the 8 eggs that I produced, only 4 were mature and out of those only 3 fertilized. The third one stopped developing after the 2nd day (they called it "arrested development") so we didn't have any frosties.
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6/25/2010 3:27 PM
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epilady,
My ultrasound is scheduled for Tuesday afternoon. I was going to go Monday morning but the nurses will do it and I want my RE to do my first one. We (RE, myself and DH) have a great time anytime he is examining me..it's not so cold and strictly business so I'm going to torture myself for another day and a half...plus I probably won't get my next beta levels until Wednesday since I'm going Tuesday afternoon. Will let you ladies know as soon as I know.
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6/25/2010 2:41 PM
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NWells: thanks for the update. So sorry your body is out of whack. Naturopaths suggest L-argenine and L-carnitine for helping with slow swimmers. It's hard enough to lose weight, much less motivate someone else to do so!! Good luck - and have a fantastic vacation. I hope you enjoy.
ivf2: might be! You might have gotten your wish! When will they do your first OB scan?
aga: I hope you're okay. It's okay to feel how you feel (and for what it's worth, I don't think what you did was vent.) I know how scary it is, and the weekend will seem long. Try to do things that take your attention (movies, World Cup - whatever works for you) so you don't dwell. I know that for me, the feelings of not being able to do anything to influence the outcome have often been the hardest to deal with. I'm used to being able to have my determination get me what I want. But when I was experiencing things like this last year, I found that distraction was really helpful. Know that we're all thinking of you and really hoping for a positive outcome on Monday. Feel free to come by and just say how you're feeling, though. It's hard to only have your husband as the only support system.
Nurho: sorry to hear about your BFN. I hope that your reconference with your RE will provide you with some more insight. Did you have any snowbabies/frosties? If I also remember correctly, I had a question about one of your procedures. Your ET was on day 3, right? But your dr said she did assisted hatching? Maybe I got the details wrong, but I thought I'd ask. It's my understanding that assisted hatching is usually done on blastocysts (baby has expanded from 6-8 cells to a hollow ball). There are some clinics that have seen their IVF rates skyrocket when they do the blasto/assisted hatching transfer.
Lucky: how did the ER go???
Wannabe: what happened at your reconference? If I remember correctly, it was this week. I might be a little early, but I've been thinking about you.
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6/24/2010 8:04 PM
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hello ladies,
I know it has been a while and there has been so much activity on here, as well as newbies.
I will make this general because there are so many ladies to address, so to those who are pregnant congrats, that is awesome
to those who are starting hang in there, it can be a long bumpy road but as you can see we all make it in the end
mablackie, you are almost there you must be so excited
As for me, well everything was FINE YEAH tell me about it!!!! our genetic testing normal, my biopsy fine and is where it should be on day 25, however I do or did have a polup, and I bleed mid cycle this month (no hormones) so needless to say my RE is baffled, and they are again discussing the Lupron treatment, who knows. My 3d ultra sound was fine only thing was my hubbys swimmers have slowed down and there are not as many so he needs to starting losing weight, that is fun trying to get him to do that, and eat better, again so much fun!!!! My RE is thinking of starting another protocall with me, I don't start with Lupron and I start on day 2 of my period. We can't start that until August though because i will be away next week and they are closed the last week in July when Myrtle is expected. so that is where I am.
I have a busy weekend and leave for SC on monday so i iwll be gone for a while. I hope everyone has a good 4th holiday, I will check back in week or so. Good luck to all, baby dust to all!!!!
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6/24/2010 7:56 PM
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agahope...sounds scary. I am praying for a positive outcome for you. Hang in there dear!
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6/24/2010 7:05 PM
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I have had a REALLY BAD day today. I started cramping pretty bad last night, and this morning was worse. I was also bleeding, like a light period, yesterday, but it was getting worse this morning. Before I went to my OB, I passed a very large clot and the cramping started to go away. They did an ultrasound, but didn't see anything. Technically, I am 5 weeks today, so they should have seen a little sac. My beta numbers came back and they were 1360. My numbers were 640 on Monday, so they little more than doubled in 72 hours. On the way home, I passed another large clot. It looks like to me that I've lost both babies....I don't know what to think...I'm freaking out!!!! My OB wants me to have another blood test done this weekend, and then we'll find out Monday what my numbers are. I'm supposed to stay sane till then....ya right!!! This is crazy!!
Sorry to vent, Ladies, but I have no one else to talk to besides my husband.
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6/24/2010 4:36 PM
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Sorry to hear about a BFN today...
IVF2 - those sure do sound like good healthy twin numbers!! Can't wait until your first ultrasound...
Today I woke up feeling a bit uncomfortable & Dr sent me to the hospital - seems we are in the early stages of labor!! I think it was the baby trying to tell us to stop procrastinating & get things ready! We got the hint & are now back at home gearing up...someone told me yesterday that babies like to come on a full moon which is this Saturday so I guess we just wait & see! Can't believe that we were getting ready for IVF #5 this time last year (which failed) & now we are getting ready to have our baby - Keep believing ladies - our dreams can all come true...
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6/24/2010 3:52 PM
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nurho- I am very sorry to hear about your BFN. This process is very stressful and can be very discouraging. i am very grateful for the support of this group to help thru difficult times.
ivf2 great news on the high beta!
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6/24/2010 3:52 PM
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nurho..I'm so sorry about your results. Thank you for all your support and kind words. I will continue to pray for your and send you some positive sticky vibes for cycle #2. God speed dear!
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6/24/2010 3:40 PM
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My RE's office just called and I am BFN. Good luck to all of you that are cycling, and those that are pregnant. This was our first try and we were so hopeful. Going to take some time to figure out what now and wait for my cycle :-(
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6/24/2010 1:10 PM
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IVF2MOM, it sounds not only like twins, but a very healthy twin pregnancy!!! Here were my numbers: 10 days post 3 day transfer 360, 48 hours later, 1360, one week later over 13,000. So mine were tripling as well. I am 33 weeks with twins and so far have had a fairly easy pregnancy (knock on wood). I can't wait to hear if it's twins or not. I'm betting it is!!!
Nuro, good luck today!!! Praying for you.
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