8/9/2010 9:40 AM
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Hi everyone.
Nwells: Good luck with the Lupron this month. And kudos for the finding ways to help you relax and feel good!
AFM- I need to some reasurrance, I guess! I am driving myself nuts. I had my FET transfer on Friday and it feels so different than the last time. I literally feel good, and have had no cramping... yet I am freaking myself out about it! My first IVF was successful, but we had an early miscariiage, so I keep thinking it should feel like the last time if I am pregnant this time. Last time I had mild cramping every night... I won't have my 1st beta until next Monday!
I literally feel like I am losing it!
Has anyone had to use vaginal progesterone suppositories? Any side effects?
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8/8/2010 8:22 PM
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hello ladies
I haven't posted but I have been keeping up and just reading, I just wanted to let everyone know that I got my Lupron shot on Thursday. My RE says I should get a bleed in about two weeks, then Myrtle will be silent for about a month maybe two. I am not really sure if I will go more then two months, I have high hopes to start an IVF cycle in October but I don't know if that will be the case. I have started running, I know the Lupron will make me gain weight so i have started to run and eat better so if anything I will stay where I am. FYI I feel amazing!!! it really helps clear my head and just makes me feel really good. I have been going to acupuncture once a week as well and my acupuncturist said it will help with the menopause symptoms, so far I haven't had any but I am only 4 days in, however I forgot about the headaches, I hate the Lupron headaches.
Well those ladies going into retrieval and transfers good luck, hope your eggs grow and stick, those of you in the 2WW rest, find ways to clear your mind, relax ,I am with everyone!!! I think of you all often and pray for u!!!
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8/8/2010 1:22 PM
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Just got word from the clinic that the two embies that we had left from this cycle didn't make it to the blast stage so that they could be frozen and will be discarded :-( I still have faith that one of the three that we transferred on Wednesday will implant and make our parenthood dreams a reality. Blessings to all.
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8/7/2010 3:01 AM
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- WannaBeAMommy; Thanks for your welcoming me to the forum back in June. I am sooo sorry about your loss at 22 weeks. That must have been very difficult to go through, but don't lose hope. I heard that inner positive thoughts do wonders for us. It seems easier said than done; however, if you want something badly enough, it's just a matter of time when it will eventually happen for you. Will keep you in my prayers.
By now I'm over 13 weeks and my CVS results from last week came out normal, which I'm thrilled about since my 1st screening blood test showed a certain type of risk for DS. We used a DE from someone who was much younger than me and so the blood test calculation results done at 10 weeks were somewhat shocking. Anyway, today's phone call relieved any worries that something may have been wrong previously and I hope that CVS truly is reliable. We haven't told anyone yet about my pregnancy, so now we can finally announce our good news to our families and friends.
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8/6/2010 6:59 PM
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Hi ladies. I just wanted to give you a quick update on my FET transfer today. Both of my embies made it through the thaw and the RE said they looked great. The actual transfer wasn't quite as smooth as I had hoped, but in the end it all worked out. My uterus wasn't cooperating, so I had to chug 6 glasses of water and wait for my bladder to fill up to elevate my uterus...Well it took over an over for the water to make its way to my bladder. Needless to say, I was the talk of the office and apparently I have a bladder that is envied! LOL. By the time we were done with the transfer, I was ready to bust! Sorry for the TMI!
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8/6/2010 12:00 PM
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@epilady -- I just got off the phone with the nurse and she said they were still in the lab doing what they are supposed to be doing. They have until tomorrow to get to blast stage and if they make it, then they will be frozen. I am just trying to keep busy and praying that one of the three we transferred on Wednesday sticks :-)
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8/6/2010 1:13 AM
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Hello ladies!
@praying & lucky: congrats on the heartbeats (hearing and seeing!). It's pretty amazing and awesome!!
@aga: after my first m/c it came straight away. After my second m/c, I had a lot of additional bleeding, and it was pretty late in showing up. It never hurts to check back in with your doctor! But every body is different.
@bc: I understand your frustration. Try not to take your partner's inventory! If he says he thinks it will work, don't project your feelings onto it. Everyone approaches this with a different attitude - some people are hopeful until the last second; others feel sad and depressed until good news is heard. As hard as it is, I hope you are able to keep the faith - because people have gotten pregnant off of less eggs harvested/fertilized than that. I will be keeping my fingers crossed for you.
@ajet: Yes, my RE tested thyroid and thank God they did. I was low. (I am pregnant and didn't know that my hair falling out and being so tired wasn't a normal part of it.) AND the clinical guidelines have changed. It's important to get the entire thyroid panel because your circulating TSH isn't really enough to always diagnose low thyroid. You want your dr to look at the ratio, because you could be "subclinical low". The fetus requires the mom's thyroid, and it's an part of brain and intelligence development.
@Ladybug: hang in there with the Clomid. I actually had better luck on Femera (letrozole). That was what I was taking with the IUIs when I got pregnant. I definitely did NOT have the mood swings on Femara, but I did on Clomid.
@nurho: hope it's going well for you! What happened to your other embies? Did they get frozen?
@b2be: good luck tomorrow!!
For me, things are still continuing well. I hit week 11 on Saturday, and this is by far the best any of my pregnancies have done. However, I still get nervous every time I have a scan. I go in for nuchal fold and first trimester combined screening on Tuesday and I'm concerned about that. Since my other pregnancies were genetically abnormal, I really worry that this one will be too. But I keep reminding myself not to borrow trouble; that in this case, preparing for the "worst" isn't really preparing; and that we'll cross each bridge if we come to it. It's hard because my husband won't be back in the States until the end of the month, so I'm going through a lot of this alone. I mean, we can talk on the phone, but it's not the same. I would like to be able to relax and just enjoy this, but am finding that difficult!
Love and prayers to all of you - and to those of you I may have missed.
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8/5/2010 7:23 PM
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Lucky- Congrats on seeing heartbeat. It was a great time for me too.
I heard my babies' heartbeat on Friday. They sound good and strong. I get my Level II U/S in Sept.
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8/5/2010 6:30 PM
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btope - after my mc my period didnt show for almost 60 days. Then it regulated out.
Ladybug- Yes clomid will make you CRAZY!!!! I was a raging you know what on it. Good luck
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8/5/2010 5:35 PM
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BC - 4 fertilized is great! Keep positive thoughts. How many are you going to transfer?
Lucky - Congratulations! it must be wonderful to make it to seeing the heartbeat. I never made it that far and hope to get there soon. Congrats, again!
Wannabe - where are you in your cycle?
As for me, AF showed up today, crap... I guess I'll try another round of clomid. And in relation to the gal that commented about clomid making her crazy, I think it is doing the same thing to me!! I have been quite the bi$%& and feel bad for my DH, but i think he understands and is not taking it personally... but I'm taking everything he says personally... I feel like I need another pill to counteract that side effect of the clomid. Ok, gonna try to keep it under control.
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8/5/2010 5:23 PM
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Fertilization Report - of 6 retrieved, 4 fertilized. Waiting to see what happens over the next few days.
I am sad and depressed because i had such high hopes and this is our last chance financially. DH says it will work and he is not concerned but I wonder how much is true and how much is him trying to make me feel better.
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8/5/2010 3:49 PM
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Hi Ladies -
I hope everyone is doing well with their cycles good luck to you all!
Hope&Faith - the hormones and emotions are very normal. I didn't really have any emotional side effects. But when I was on clomid I was CRAZY! So it probably just depends on the drugs. Stay positive! I found praying was extremely helpful with the worrying and that's what got me through the whole process.
Btobe - good luck with the FET!
Nurho - hope you are getting some rest and trying not to stress. Good luck sending you lots of sticky dust!
BC - 6 good eggs is great! It's all about quality! Let us know what your fertilization report is. Had 6 eggs as well and they transferred 3, two 8 cell and one 7 cell. And I think I was having twins but I got one in the end. So this can work! Stay positive!
I went yesterday and we hit another milestone we saw the heart beat. It was so amazing I feel like I can breath a bit easier now. The nurse said once they see the heartbeat on the ultra sound it's a really good thing because the chance of miscarriage is only about 5% at that point. So we are now telling people and feeling excited. I go back in 2 weeks for another ultrasound and to see my RE one last time. Then they are releasing me to my OB.
I always loved hearing the success stories on here so I really hope this information helps you.
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8/5/2010 3:21 PM
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Hi Ladies!
I haven't posted anything since my m/c at the end of June, but I've been checking in and reading the posts. Good luck to all of you that are in a cycle or 2ww!!
I have a question...how long after a m/c does it take for AF to appear?? It has been over a month for me, and I am a little concerned.
Hope everyone is having a good day!
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8/5/2010 12:50 PM
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Question: Did anyone's RE test the thyroid hormones T3 to R3 ratio and T4? This is a seperate panel from THS testing.
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8/4/2010 9:55 PM
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Hi, sisters! Looks like a quite a few of your are cycling - good luck to you all! And for those of you that have gotten recent BFN's - I'm sorry. I know it's hard. We are taking a break from IVF still, spent all our money from the line of credit. Now I'm taking clomid and AF is expected to arrive any moment now. Going south to visit some friends for the weekend so hopefully I can keep my mind off all this fertility stuff. As I don't know if we will be able to try (afford) IVF again I've suggested to my husband maybe trying donor sperm with IUI knowing that route would be much less expensive than the IVF and can still give us a shot at a family together :o) I don't think he is too keen on the idea quite yet. I guess we'll see what happens with the clomid during the next few months and go from there.
Good night, ladies!
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8/4/2010 9:05 PM
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Hi ladies!
We had our retrieval today; 6 mature and 'good looking' eggs. So two more than last IVF - now we wait. They do ICSI on all of them because we have so few. Transfer is scheduled for Sunday morning.
@nuhro - We will pray for good results for you, sounds like everything went well!
@hopenfaith - I was fine on follistim last time and did well this time on the max dose, up until today (retrieval) then I started getting pissy. I think it might have been stress. I was on the verge of tears while on Follistim but managed to hold them back with a few deep breaths. Good luck!
PS.I love coming in here - the other forum I have been a member of for 5 years can be such a negative place, bickering about postings and opinions and negative comments. I need positive thoughts and people who are in my same boat and you ladies are wonderful! Thank you for being here!
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8/4/2010 7:23 PM
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Hi ladies -- we had our 3 day transfer today. We transferred 3 embryos -- 1 5 cell, 1 6 cell, and 1 7 cell. Both the RE and the embryologist thought this was the best approach to take seeing that we had had a BFN when we transferred 2 embies during our last cycle. The 5 and 6 cell embies both have some fragmentation, and the 7 cell none.
We still have 2 embryos "growing" in the lab and if they make it to blasto stage, they will be frozen. Currently they are developing a little slower - 1 4 cell and 1 5 cell. We are praying and have faith that this cycle will give us our BFP.
Good luck to all, and patience to those now in the 2ww.
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8/4/2010 6:45 PM
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Hello again ladies. It has been a long time since I last posted, so congrats to all of those who had BFP's. It is always reassuring to hear success stories.
AFM- I am having my 1st FET transfer on Friday. We are transferring our only 2, so I am praying that they both survive the thaw process. FET has been so much easier and less stressful, but the amount of IM shots is almost overwhelming this week. I also have an extra stresser this time around because my 1st beta test is scheduled for the 16th, but we then are leaving the country for a week, so I will have to wait to get my 2nd beta test done until after we return. I will be a nervous wreck the entire time we are on vacation if I do get a BFP on the 16th because my beta #'s on our first IVF started out low and then began falling off after our 3rd test.
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8/4/2010 9:02 AM
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FaithNChrist - You are in my prayers! I hope to be where you are next week! Keep us posted!
I'm on day 3 of Follistim and I'm a total mess! Please tell me you all have been the same way. I go back Friday morning for an ultra sound to see how many follicles I made this week. I'm a nervous wreck! I feel bloated, tired, and I'm an emotional mess! I think a lot of it is the pressure of this to work! With the super stim cycles we didn't have a lot invested in it, but after spending this much money and the fact that it may not work makes me sick. I just lay awake at night worrying, what if I don't make follicles, what if they don't grow, all those what ifs! UGH!
Last night when I had my break down, my husband asked if I had been on my forum! He knows how much better I feel after I read the posts.
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8/4/2010 9:01 AM
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faithnchrist - Good luck on transfer today. Eat your fresh pineapple and get lots of rest
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8/4/2010 9:00 AM
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AJET- I was on an antidepressant when I first consulted my RE and I was told it was a class C which is not safe for pregnancy so Ihad to be off of it before I could even start my cycle. But that was my RE's requirement.
I am also hoping to cycle in Jan as we are saving now for a fresh cycle. Maybe we will be cycle buddies
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8/4/2010 12:53 AM
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Hi Ladies! It's been awhile and I thought I'd check in. I've been taking time off and am planning to do a fresh cycle in Jan. I've just recently been put on the antidepressant, Lexapro. From my research, it appears to be ok to take antidepressants during an IVF cycle. Does anyone know or have feedback? I do not plan to continue taking Lexapro during transfer or pregnancy.
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8/3/2010 3:20 PM
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faithnchrist - Good Luck on your transfer! That part is so much easier! What was your fertilization report? I also had 6 eggs and 3 transferred back and am pregnant with one. So stay positive it can work!
I go tomorrow to have an ultra sound and listen to the baby's heart beat. I am so excited and nervous I hope everything goes well. I do definitely feel pregnant, I am nauseous all the time and have to eat a lot to try and feel better.
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8/3/2010 2:55 PM
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@Cristeen 7: Thank you sooooo much your kind words are greatly needed.
Update: My transfer is scheduled for tomorrow at 12pm. (Nervous)
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8/2/2010 12:45 PM
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Faith....thinking of you...6 eggs is great!! Remember, it's quality not quantity and it only takes 1. Hope you're feeling okay!!
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8/2/2010 11:51 AM
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They recovered six eggs yesterday. I am currently awaiting results (quality, fertilization, etc.) on the 6 eggs.
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8/1/2010 12:42 PM
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Wow, Snowie, that story brought me to tears. It is a great reminder to not be so caught up in what we hope for in the future that we forget to enjoy the present.
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7/31/2010 4:18 PM
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Snowie...thanks so much for sharing the article on "marriage". It touched my heart also and I have already passed it along to my hubby and a few other couples. In a sense, it does apply to ttc because sometimes we get so wrapped up in trying to conceive that we forget about the intimacy with our partners and how important that is for us to remain close & in sync with one another. Again, thanks for posting it.
Praying2Be....I am very sorry about your BFN. 38 is not old in most every way and it's frustrating when our eggs don't "still feel young" too. I went the donor egg (DE) route after a few tries with my own eggs and had a very good experience with it. We chose an anonymous donor through our RE clinic. I acutally conceived twin boys on my first try and was so happy. I lost them in January due to preterm labor at over 22 weeks. (Had nothing to do with DE though, my own clotting issue.) Anyway, if you decide to go that direction and have any questions, please don't hesitate to ask. For me, it became more important to become a mommy than it did to have a child from my own eggs. Good luck to you either way.
Nurho....good luck with the new protocol. Hope this cycle is a good one for you!
FaithinChrist....best wishes for a great egg retrieval tomorrow. Hope you gets lots of beautiful eggs that turn into beautiful embies!
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7/31/2010 8:52 AM
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Not TTC related however this touched my heart and I wanted to share with my girls......
MARRIAGE
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.
When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.
She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.
On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.
Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.
Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.
Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.
At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....
The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
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7/30/2010 3:10 PM
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Hi all!
I have been reading all of you posts. Monday I got a BFN on my IVF#2. I had 13 follicles retrieved, of those 9 were injected with sperm for fertilization. Only 4 fertilized. Transfered all four because they were growing slow. Did not get anything!! So depressing. I respond well to stimulation, but I guess my eggs just are not very good. I guess 38 is not that young. Will meet with RE next week to discuss what happened and what to do next. I was thinking that maybe I should go with donor eggs. Does anyone have any insight on donor eggs and what questions I should ask my RE? Thanks for your help!
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7/30/2010 12:26 PM
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Hi Ladies -- it's been a while since I posted, but I have been reading and keeping up. Quick update on us since we had our BFN in June. After conferring with our RE we decided to start our 2nd cycle using a slightly different protocol than the first. My response has been way better and now I have my ER scheduled for August 2nd. I am also doing acupuncture this time around and not sure if this has had an effect on my response, but it is really relaxing. On the advice of the acupuncturist, I will also have a session pre-transfer, and one post transfer;
Keeping our faith strong that we will be blessed this time around, as financially this is it for us.
Good luck and be strong to everyone else in cycle or in the 2ww.
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7/30/2010 12:24 PM
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My Estrogen today was 1100. My retreivel is scheuled for Sunday at 8am. I have 9 follicles 7 of them being within 18-22. My uterine lining is 12.5. =) Getting pretty nervous now (ugg)
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7/29/2010 2:33 PM
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luci....dear, so very, very sorry for your BFN. I know you've endured a long road as well. No matter what we endure, the devastation is still there each time. Likewise, you WILL have the joy also someday when you get your BFP. I'm just sorry it didn't happen this time. Refresh my memory if you don't mind...I think you also had MTHFR or something if I remember correctly. What protocol did they have you on for that? I know how we all start dissecting things once we get bad news and start planning for the next time. Do you still have some frozen embies? I'll be thinking of you. Hang in there...it will happen...keep believing. Hugs to you!
Cristeen....so nice to hear from you! Glad you are feeling better and are starting to consider your FET. Your 3 embies are waiting for you and your miracle baby hopefully too! I totally get what you mean about working in L&D. My sister has been in that area for 25+ years...first head nurse of Post partum and then L&D. It always broke my heart about how many women come in there with multiple children, multiple daddies, multiple arrests, etc. and they're usually still quite young and have no future to offer their babies. Maddening, isn't it! It's especially frustrating when we girls would give anything to have our babies. Glad that you and your hubby are talking about moving forward. Good luck and let us know how your meeting goes on the 19th.
My AF showed up yesterday so we are good to go! Waiting for the call from my IVF nurse with the rest of this cycle's plan.
Take care everyone!
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7/29/2010 6:26 AM
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Hi everyone!!
Luci...please know I'm thinking of you. It is so devastating to get that BFN after working so hard to get to that
transfer and to got through the torture of the 2ww. Take some time to grieve and be good to yourself.
Faith...I am rooting for you. Having had 2 cancelled cycles after 5 days on high doses of stims, I often wonder if they cancelled me too soon. The meds are so expensive as you know but I wonder if I would've eventually responded. It looks like you're gonna make it to ER!!!
Snowie...so glad to see you back! Thinking of you and glad you are working on another cycle and not losing faith!
Wannabe...my inspiration!!! You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday for that FET...I really hope this is your time!
I am feeling much better these days after the BFN in June. Wasn't sure I would ever feel better but it has taken alot of talking about how I'm feeling with my DH and alot of support between he and I. We talk alot about how it affected us ..I'm very fortunate to have such a good relationship. I really was afraid I would have to change jobs from labor and delivery. It's not the babies that are difficult....they are the best part!! It's the patients who don't get any prenatal care or drink and take drugs pregnant or have baby after baby and have them taken away because they can't care for them. I have always tried to remain objective in my nursing care but wasn't ready for how this IVF would change me. It's been difficult but has gotten better over time. We have an appt Aug 19th with a new RE. We are finally talking FET. My DH didn't want to try again but is feeling more positive about it this past few weeks as am I. I really feel like we worked so hard to get those embies...we have try with those last three. Not sure how soon we'll go forward, depends what the RE has to say.
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7/28/2010 9:13 PM
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Mablackie - I want to wish you a big congratulations as well! Wonderful news and you are an inspiration to us all in the process. Best wishes to you and your newly extended family. You are blessed.
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7/28/2010 2:33 PM
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Luci- I am sorry for your BFN
Faithnchrist- Thanks for the links I will check them out.
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7/28/2010 2:04 PM
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Hi Ladies -
Fensox - Congrats on almost getting to find out the sex! That must feel wonderful to be half way to the finish line!
Irishgirl - I hope that you are feeling better soon and able to start treatment!
Possiblemom - hoping that you are able to try again soon. I know how hard it is I wish that insurance would cover this!
Wannabe - Good luck with your FET sounds like you are getting closer. Stay positive and try and relax, you will get there. You deserve it after every thing you have been through.
Faithnchrist - Great rise on the numbers! Hope they get some great eggs! I had 9 follicles as well and when they retrieved them I only had 6, but all 6 were really good eggs and they all made it through fertilization. But don't get discouraged if that happens because its all about quality. Good luck to you!
Luci - So sorry for your BFN, but maybe it is too early to know for sure. I would ask your RE why they freeze them at whatever cell stage they are currently at when they are ready to transfer. I thought most clinics freeze them once they are blastocysts. Blast have the most chance of implantation. And it can be hard for the embryos to survive the thawing process. It seems like you would have a higher chance of implantation with blasts with a FET since the success rate is cut in half. I am just asking because I want you to be aware that most clinics from what I have heard don't do this. And if it affects your chances then it's something you should look into. I really hope that everything works out for you and you do deserve to be a mom!!!!
Not much going on here other than I have started to feel nauseous the last few days. I have to eat a lot through out the day in order for it to go away. But I am not complaining I just want this baby to keep growing.
Good luck to everyone!!!
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7/28/2010 1:29 PM
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I just got off the phone with the doctor's. My beta is 0. They want me to come back in on Friday on the off chance that something registers then since it will be day 12, but it is unlikely. I just really thought that it had worked. Everything seemed to fall into place and the embryos were strong and growing. I just don't get it. I sometimes feel like the universe is telling me that I don't deserve to be a mom.
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7/28/2010 12:51 PM
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Snowie1978: Perhaps the attached to websites will help you.
One of them
http://www.sart.org/find_frm.html
provides data on the success of IVF on an indivdual MD/clinic.
The other
http://www.inciid.org/article.php?cat=statemandates&id=243
provides a list of employers that cover infertility under their insurance programs.
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7/28/2010 12:36 PM
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Thanks ladies. I always check in just dont post much as I dont really have much going on. Trying to work out financing for another shot at IVF. Looking at a goal date of Jan 2011 as a cycle date. We are moving in Nov so I am going to give the Clinic there a shot. And if I dont like them there is more than one clinic so I am excited.
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7/28/2010 12:08 PM
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Estrogen:
7/15 13
7/22 29 (4th day on stims, stims increased to 225/225U)
7/24 108
7/26 314
7/28 620
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7/28/2010 11:59 AM
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luci.....thinking about you today and just said a prayer for you. Really, really hoping you get your BFP and a good, strong beta number. Please update when you can...we'll be on pins & needles with you!
Snowie....always good to hear from you and know that you are around. Know you're working towards another IVF round when finances permit. Hope you're making progress that way.
Possible mom....good luck on the finance thing also. It's a big burden for we "IVFer's" that few outsiders understand.
I had my baseline yesterday but still no AF. They think she should show anyday per my lining & estrogen numbers. Will start Estrace shortly there after in preparation for our FET with our 2 embryos. Should be mid-late August. Praying this time works out for us too. Financially, this may be the last shot. FYI though....I have been looking into another clinic, not in my area, but they have a strong "Shared Risk" program where you can cycle up to 6 times (fresh or frozen) and if you don't take home a baby, it is all refundable. I have relatives not too far from this clinic so I could always stay with them and communte. We'll see though..for right now, just praying our FET works!
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7/28/2010 11:48 AM
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Update: My estrogen climbed from 314 to 620. They found 2 new follicles giving me a total of 9 size ranging from 8-20. Looks like the size of my follicles and Estrogen continue to double. I am currently waiting for my nurse to call me back on a trigger date. They may wait a few days for the smaller follicles to grow. Prayerfully this trend continues! =)
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7/28/2010 10:18 AM
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Snowie1978: How are things going with you. It is really good to see you back on the forum.
To all the ladies who have just had your blessings congrats to you and to the one's in the process good luck and may the lord bless you as well.
As for me I am still trying to come up with the resources to try again. I don't want to say I am through but coming up with the money is reall hard.
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7/28/2010 9:08 AM
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Good luck today Luci. Hope you get your BFP and keeper.
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7/27/2010 9:53 PM
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mablackie- congrats!! You give us all hope that this can really happen.
I am trying to be calm and positive right now. Things looked really good the day of my FET. I had blood work on Friday and my estrogen was 420. The nurse was positive about that because last time it only 220 at the same point. I had convinced myself that this is it because everything seemed to be falling into place. Monday my estrogen was 414. My nurse didn't seem to concerned, she said that it can fluctuate. It is still higher than the same point last time. My progesterone has been greater then 40.8. I am just nervous. Tomorrow is my beta. I am so nervous. I am not sure what a good beta would be, it is being done on day 9 since the transfer. Last time I got a positive and I was so happy but my beta was only 38.6 and it never really did what it should and I lost it. I just hope that this is it. We have been trying for a baby for 5 years , 3 of those with our RE. I just don't know how many more losses I can take. I will know tomorrow afternoon. I will let you all know.
Good luck to everyone and good night.
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7/27/2010 12:54 PM
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Macblackie- awesome- so happy to here of your arrivals!!! enjoy being a mom!
Hope: thankyou, as of right now I am only going to do it for maybe 2-3 months, my cramps returned this month and were awful, so the ides of no period kind of sounds nice to me at this point. My endometriosis is not really that severe but my RE feels that this treatment will help. I am just glad to finally know someone else who has tried it, now if you get pregnant I will feel even better!!!!
Every one else hang in there!!!!
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7/26/2010 4:44 PM
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Congratulations on your little boy and little girl, mablackie! You got the jackpot! Glad to hear you made it to 36 weeks and everyone is home healthy. Enjoy every single, precious moment!
Fensox...try not to worry about the "17" number...remember it is just a number and no more significant than any other number for you! Can't wait to hear about your August u/s when you find out the sex. It's a big milestone and then you can start decorating your nursery (if you haven't already!).
I have my baseline tomorrow. Am a bit concerned that my FET may get pushed back as I have not gotten the normal AF that goes with being on Lupron. Hoping it's not another cyst or something else problamatic. Can't anything be simple!?
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7/26/2010 1:38 PM
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Update: My estrogen today day 8 was 314 from 108. My follicles went from 11-13 to 14-17. I have a total of 7 follicles. The RE said that my estrogen level is good in comparison to the # of follicles and their size.
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7/26/2010 12:01 PM
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mablackie - Congrats, this is great news and hope for all of us out here.
I have been reading the posts but have not posted lately. I am in week 17 of being pregnant and remember reading on here how someone had lost their baby in week 17 - so part of me is just wanting to get past this week because that has been in my head from the beginning. I am excited and waiting for August 9th when I hopefully (if baby cooperates) find out the sex of the baby.
Wish every love and luck as they go through this very emotional and stressful process called IVF...
Fensox
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