6/1/2011 11:59 AM
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hello ladies,
LUcky great to hear from you!!! Glad your lil girl is sleeping, I can't wait to be sleep deprived!!! going on BCP really. Girl, my thought is if it is meant to be it will be and if I get preg on my own right after I have a baby so be it!!!!
Babies, I had bleeding, freaked me out, I had three ultra sounds in one week, all two days apart. I had a pocket of blood that had to come out and that is what was causing the bleeding. Granted all didn't end well for me, but I am praying for you, looks good your numbers are doubling!!!
to the rest of you good luck
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6/1/2011 10:52 AM
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Babies4Us.. I have a girlfriend who bled like a period for a week at about 6 weeks, but her ultrasound showed a perfect tiny sac. Her RE said he believes she had two eggs implant and and one did not develop causing the bleed. She went on to have a baby boy this past January. Quite possibly what is happening to you. My Beta at 14dp5dt was only 66 and it did not quite double in 72 hours. But, 7 months later (he was 7 weeks early) I had a healthy little boy who is now out of control with energy and intrigue...Hang in there and keep the faith... If you are stressed with worried, call your RE, he/she completely understands our concerns and often times, lunacy ... Good Luck to you!
Tiffany
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6/1/2011 9:30 AM
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Hey ladies! I just wanted to give a quick update, so I went in yesterday for a beta and it was 819. Have any of you that have been pregnant experienced bleeding like a period during pregnancy. It is not spotting, but I am worried even though my numbers are more than doubling. Thanks so much for the words of encouragement. Ultrasound is scheculed for June 13th!!
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5/31/2011 10:33 PM
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tmb- Sorry you feel like we have forgotton about you but we have not. I rememeber each and everyone of my sisters when I pray.
I miss carried a week after you and I am still bleeding, I was supossed to go in for another BETA and did not feel like being bothered, which is a bad sign because I feel like crap most days. I am praying and that is what helps on the other days. I drink alot of herbal tea and I think it helps my body expell the tissue and the extra lining.
I having been reading and smiling everytime I see on of my sisters start a new cycle because it gives me hope.
I was looking at options for adoption today and OMG!!!! They make it so hard to apot a baby from both the US and other countries. It would be less expensive to have another IVF cycle from the looks of things.
Lucky give the baby a whole bunch of kissess from aunti Toni.
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5/31/2011 3:57 PM
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tmb - After my ectopic it took 7 weeks for my levels to get back to normal. Hang in there...
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5/31/2011 1:45 PM
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Lucky-Hi! I haven't seen you on in awhile. I can imagine how busy you must be with the new baby! That is funny about taking the birth control again.
As for me, my inusrance Rx wanted to get my beta since I am still showing up as pregnant on home tests, and my miscarriage was on May 9. It was at 732 as of Saturday. He said to come take it again in a week to make sure it is going down or there could be some left over tissue, a molar pregnancy or cancer!! My fertility Rx, who I like so much better, sd not to worry, as it might just be taking longer to go down.
Well best of luck to the rest of you! I feel like you have forgotten about me.
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5/31/2011 12:19 PM
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Hi Ladies -
Its been awhile since I have posted anything but I wanted to let you know I read every day and keep up on you ladies.
Amyb - good luck finding an OB my office had 4 OBs and I saw each of them once and my main OB throughout most of the pregnancy. But she wasn't on call so she didn't deliver me. I had another OB altogether who I had only met twice. I saw her every time since then and she dealt with my preeclampsia after pregnancy. she was great so I got really lucky. So make sure if you go with an OB that has a lot of doctors that you see them all at least once.
Toni & TMB- So sorry for your loss I hope that you can find strength through God.
Babies4us - I remember my RE saying that they considered anything over 20 to be pregnant. It has a lot to do whether or not the numbers keep doubling. So keep the faith.
DLmiracle - Hope those embies stick!
Linz34 - I took the exact same drugs bravelle and menopur. My first cycle was cancelled because I didn't respond as I should have. But the next time they up the dose to 5 vials like you and it worked! So good luck!
Ind girl - Good luck with your beta tomorrow. When you are on all these drugs I dont think your period comes as it normally would. Also I didnt get pregnancy symptoms until I was almost 8 weeks. Then the morning sickness kicked in.
So as for me I am back to work now my baby is 11 weeks old today. I no longer have to take meds for the high blood pressure. And the best part is that she has started sleeping 7 to 8 hours a night. So I hope it stays that way because the no sleep was the hardest part for me. Also it was weird for me to call my OBs office today because I am getting on birth control now and it has been so long since I have tried not to get pregnant that I wasn't exactly sure when to start the pills. It's amazing that last year at this time I was on birth control to start my IVF cycle and a year later I am taking birth control because I don't want to get pregnant.
So keep the faith ladies it amazing how much your life can change in a year. And all your dreams can come true!
Good luck to all the new ladies with your journey.
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5/31/2011 11:01 AM
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Toni, I am so sorry for your loss. Wishing you strength and peace.
Babies4us, that is exciting that your beta is rising despite a low start. Good luck with your next numbers.
DLmiracle, glad to hear you've been taking it easy. Best of luck!
And to the rest of you cycling or in your 2ww, or just resting, wishing you babydust and sanity.
I am just about at 8 weeks and searching for an ob. I am hoping to get some calls back today after the long weekend. Choosing and OB is something we really did not think much about because we did not want to torture ourselves before we got to the pregnant point. Now that I have officially "graduated" from my fertility doc I feel a little lost without another lined up. So my goal for this week is to get set up with an OB.
Once again good luck to everyone!
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5/30/2011 6:16 PM
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DLMIRACLE - Good luck in the 2ww!!
So just a quick update on myself. 1st Beta 5/23 was 20, 5/25 was 50, and 5/27 was 150. I will go in again tomorrow just for my own knowledge, the Dr. said go ahead and make an ultrasound appt. We are quite excited but still very cautiously optimistic as the dr.'s office said they don't have people start at 20 and go up "usually". We are keeping the faith alive!!
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5/30/2011 8:44 AM
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Toni, Linz and BabyToro - Thank you so much for thinking of me. My DH had me on lock down the whole weekend, making sure that I didn't get out of bed (SMILE!!!) AND yes, I have been eating lots of pineapple and praying a lot. I came back to work today, but promise myself to take it easy as much as I can. My Beta is on sunday, june 5th, so please keep praying for us. Many blessings and baby dust everyone!!!
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5/29/2011 12:23 AM
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DLMiracle: Still thinking of you hoping your 2ww you stay calm and that your news will be wonderful then as well.
Linz34: Girl yesterday I got all my medications and it was just overwhelming for me, I just broke down and felt so lonely cause my hubby wasn't home. I will be taking my last active BC pill this Monday. Just the thought that maybe after all this I will have a little baby thats part me and part Toro (my hubby) comforts me and gives me strength. I imagine we will be experts at this after a few days comforts me as well. Good Luck with your journey.
Toni: I really hope you are feeling better.
Everybody else Hello and keep your hopes up God will be with all of us regardless the outcomes.
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5/28/2011 10:20 PM
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DLMIRACLE -That's great news! I hope all 3 stick! Hope you are feeling well and stay sane in your 2ww.
Babytoro -Everything looked clear on my US, so off to a good start. I took my first injection of Bravelle and Menopur tonight. I was so nervous mixing a total of 5 vials. I was scared to mess them up. So far no side effects and the meds didn't burn at all. I'm so happy to have finally started! This process can really make a person crazy. Hurry up and wait! Well I'll be in touch. Not too much longer for you How exciting.... Best of luck on your US girl!
I hope everyone else is doing well!
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5/28/2011 1:32 PM
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I meant your little ones, my sister.
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5/28/2011 1:31 PM
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Hello DL-
Remember PUPO and rest, eat that pinapple and drink plenty of water. I will pray for you and you little one.
Love Toni
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5/27/2011 10:27 PM
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hi girls,
I had my 5-day transfer today. Three were transfered, 2 did not make it. Lots of prayers, and may the lord bless us all.
Toni - I can't even begin to imagine how you are feeling. A big hug to you, and remember God loves you and has a plan for all of us, let's pray with faith so he can guide our path. For sure, God does not want you to be sad..you must be strong and believe!!!!
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5/27/2011 5:08 PM
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Hello Sister,
Sorry I have been Mia, I have been I guess licking my wounds. I just had a good cry and I felt that I needed to talk to people that understand, and I turned to you all. As of Monday the Beta was down to 340, and I was told to stop all medication. So now I am going through the loss again naturally, no D&C since I passed the embryo already.
I have to meet with the Dr. but right now I am so down I only lay in bed and sleep. Yesterday was a better day for me, because I did some research, then today the pain and bleeding is so bad that I broke down.
My girlfriend's baby is still in NICU and the Dr. are giving her horror stories everyday, but the baby is still fighting, I pray for her to make it and make them feel bad about not having faith in God.
Kisses and love to all of you, thank you all for the kind words and the love.
Love Toni.
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5/26/2011 4:16 PM
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qgirl: thanks for your good wishes for us starting our medications.
DMiracle: good luck and best wishes to you and your husband. Hopefully you will have amazing news for us in the coming days.
Linz34: How was your US? well, good luck on starting your medications. I sincerely hope they work and your ending results are wonderful. My baseline US is June 2 and I start my meds June 3.
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5/26/2011 1:44 PM
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Toni-I am so sorry for your loss, and I am relating over here with the rollercoaster ride! Since you haven't written in a while, I am wondering if it is because of good news or bad news or maybe you are busy helping your friend. I'm thinking of you with positive thoughts.
Qgirl and DLMiracle-Thank you so much for still thinking of me! Sorry I haven't written in the past couple weeks, but I have been trying to recover emotionally and physically from the miscarriage. My Rx stopped testing my HCG, so I don't know if it had started going down, but I am still testing as pregnant on home pregnancy tests even though at my last US on 5/12 my RX sd that there was no longer the sac. It is so weird to still test positive. At this point my DL and I are hoping that I won't test positive soon, so we can start trying again. How ironic.
DLMiracle-How are you doing after the transfer? That is great about the four good blastocysts!
jdglak-Thank you for the info about food that can possibly cause miscarriage, and foods/herbs that may help!
Babies4us-How are you doing? Any update?
amyb-Congrats on the heartbeat! How things going now?
Prayers to all for baby success!
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5/26/2011 10:41 AM
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Girls thanks for the response on the progesterone. In the last 2 days I have actually not been feeling the cramping anymore. But nice to know that you can expect it for up to 2 weeks potentially. Just so you all know if you are told to take the oral progesterone, be prepared for the dizziness. It made me feel like I just took a valium. Just the first feelings you get. So make sure you know how you react to it before driving or becoming active. Its not bad, but definitely side effects. So hopefully everything will be fine when I go in on June 1st for my Beta...Most typically I would have already started my cycle about 4 days ago. And I am pretty regular with a schedule. I do know that the meds could contribute, but thought I would point that out.. So hopefully a good sign.. Hoping all of you are doing well.
Babies4us - Hoping your #'s keep rising...Keep the faith..
Much Hope, Love, & Support
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5/25/2011 5:28 PM
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DLMIRACLE - GOOD LUCK with the transfer, sounds like things are going great!!
IndGirl - No advice on the progesterone, but my dr. said it is perfectedly normal to have mild cramping up to 2 weeks after transfer. GOOD LUCK to you too!!
As for me, well my hcg went from 20 on Monday to 50 today, so we are trying to stay cautiously optimistic!! More blood on Friday.
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5/25/2011 1:44 PM
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Hello everyone, just a quick note. My 3-day transfer got change to 5-day. My doctor says 4 of the five embies are very good quality and we will be better off waiting. four are seven celled and 1 is five cell, with 8 cell being the best.
so please keep praying for us.
Indgirl- I'm not the expert on progesterone, so hopefully some of the ones who had multiple cycles can give you a better idea. don't dispair, the numbers are not that far off from where they need to be. I will pray and send my blessings your way.
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5/24/2011 11:30 PM
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nwells - when i had my retrieval. I did have some sort of meds through my iv... I was loopy, and I to talked through the procedure. I didnt know I was even talking. they told me the conversation after the procedure was over and after my recovery. I think they should use those meds when interrogating criminals. LOL... They could have gotten me to talk about anything and I had no control. I sure they have fun with that for entertainment. I would...
To all in the wait - much luck, stay sane... and positive.
to all preparing - stay strong, and let the meds do the body good
Since transfer i have had some very mild camping, not sure if this is normal. what do you guys think. also i had m progesterone levels checked today and it was only 12, Dr. wants it to be at least 15. So now I am addig oral progesterone to my already progesterone suppositories. Hopefully that will raise the #..
Please advise or state your opinion on this. It will ease my mind, as I am working really hard to not start the major worrying. (I think it has already started) I broke down and cried today. Just so worried of the outcome.
Much Hope, Love, & Support
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5/24/2011 9:20 PM
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DLMiracle- will be thinking of you and your embies, best of luck with your transfer
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5/24/2011 3:32 PM
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Thank-you everyone for your thoughts and well wishes. I had 13 eggs retrieved, five fertilized. I am scheduled for my transfer tomorrow (5/25/11) at 8:45am. Please, pray for us.
amyb and qgirl - congratulations and best wishes for an uneventful pregnancy.
babies4us - My prayers are with you and hope that you progress nicely.
Nwells and everyone else cycling soon, wishing you the best. Take it easy. It is normal to be concern about not doing your meds properly. My online pharmacy offers videos for all my meds, which was a life saver, even on my second cycle, I had to go back and refresh my memory.
A quick note about my retrieval. My first cycle, I did not have any pain, as I was completely sedated and woke up after everything was done. This time, it seems that the meds wore off, just when the DR was finishing up and that's why it was painful. But it did not last long, and I was able to come back to work today.
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5/24/2011 11:00 AM
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I wanted to catch up quick
amyb- isn't it awesome when you see the little heartbeat- I actually saw ours at 5 weeks 4 days, i cried it was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen, even if it was only for a few weeks, it was one of most memorable days for me. enjoy every minute!!!
babies 4 us- don't stress yourself out, i will be thinking of you tomorrow
Dlmiracle and indy girl- your RE's didn't give you anything while they are doing the ER???? all 4 times and soon to be 5, I am giving happy meds, no idea what they give me in that IV all I know is I am out of it, and all relaxed and I feel nothing, I actually talk during it and the last time I actually watched the screen as my RE was taking them eggs, at the time I thought it was neat, don't remember much now though. The first time I didn't even remember the ER or walking out of the place to go home.
Toni, you and your friend have been on my mind, I have been checking in to see where you are and how you are doing
Snowie- WHat is up girl!!!!! and how is your lil girl doin!!!! I will prob write you later but i wanted to say I am going to See REBA!!!! She is coming to the Big E and my Aunt( she really isn't an aunt but she is family) I am taking her because she is a huge fan!! I am excited!!!!!
Well ladies lots of work to do, my year is winding down I will be on summer break soon, which is great because I will have less stress when I go through the process and I don't have to take my sick time!!!! I am really excited this time I can barley contain myself!!!
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5/23/2011 10:27 PM
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Ind Girl and DLMIRACLE – Wishing you the best as you go through your 2ww (Ind Girl) and keep up with the status of your eggs/embies prior to transfer (DLMIRACLE). Just stay calm, relax, and think positive.
Babies4Us – If I have this right you were 13 days post transfer with the first test, right? So I was told an hcg of 70-100 was a “good” level when I was tested at day 9 post transfer, but obviously there are those who found out they were pregnant with starting numbers even lower. Just try to be calm until Wed (believe me, I know it’s easier said than done).
Amyb- Great news on the US! You and I are pretty close. I just had my 2nd US today and I’m 7 weeks, 5 days. HR today was 166 and everything seems to be progressing well. Exciting but I’m still anxious – just hard to believe it. I’m still only telling immediate family until I’m further along. Hope all continues to go well for you.
Linz34, NWells, and babytoro – Hope all goes well as you start meds and get ready for your next steps.
tmb and Toni – how are you doing?
There’s a lot going on with folks these days so if I missed someone who is in the midst of the IVF process I apologize. I think it’s great we can all reach out to others going through this. Best to all!
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5/23/2011 7:13 PM
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amyb- Congratulations!! So happy for you!
So I just wanted to say that I am freaking out. I need some advise/words of wisdom/hope from all you ladies out there. My hcg today was 20, the dr's office said this is a gray area and I need to retest on Wednesday. The dr. said our chance wasn't great but to still have some hope. Has anyone had or known someone that had an hcg that low and ended up succesful? We did a 5 day transfer on the 11th if that helps anyone. We took a pregnancy test Saturday and it was negative, but I still want some hope and in my mind tell myself that they just attached late and are just starting out. I guess I didn't ask if that is considered pregnant either, does anyone know? I just have never made it this far in the IVF process so I want some hope. Thanks!!
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5/23/2011 12:05 PM
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Hello all. DLmiracle, my second ER was more painful than the first as well. I think it is because the ovaries were still beat up from the first round. Hope you get a good fertilization report. Babies4Us and IndGirl, and anyone else who is in their 2ww, good luck to you and hang in there! Linz34, hope your US goes well and you are able to move forward. Also good luck to everyone else cycling.
This morning I had my 6 wk ultrasound. No multiples, just one, and we could see and hear the heart beat. So hard to believe something the size of a grain of rice already has a pumping little heart! As I write this I pray it gives the rest of you who are cycling or between cycles hope. When they transferred our 4, they were saying the rate of division was so low that they did not really expect success, then our other 3 died before we could freeze them. So, this was really against the odds but today I saw the proof that sometimes you can beat the odds.
Love, peace, and babydust to all.
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5/22/2011 8:49 PM
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Toni I also wanted to say I'm so sorry for your painful time you are having.
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5/22/2011 8:47 PM
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DLMIRACLE -How many eggs did you end up with? I thought the ER was painfull both times I had them done. I was just starting to think I was a big baby.
Indy Girl -Stay sane. I will pray that you get good news.
Nwells -sorry to hear about your delay in cycle but just think you will have a April baby now.
Babytoro-I start my meds the 28th so I will keep you posted on all the little tips or tricks I find out. I too am scared about mixing the meds wrong but all will be okay. I just know it.
Babies4us -How are you holding up? When is your 2ww up?
Everyone else that I didn't mention I hope everything is going great for you also.
Well Tuesday is my base line US. I'm getting excitied. Ready to get started!
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5/22/2011 6:36 PM
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jezdc & Ind girl - thank-you for thinking of me. Actually, I had my retrieval today, as we had no good embies left from our first try. It was a lot more painful this time around, but I'm gla that part is over with. tomorrow I find out how many fertilized and whether we will do a 3-day or 5-day transfer.
IndGirl - That's great news about your embies!!!! I'm praying for you and your husband...Enjoy your days, 2ww will be here faster than we think.
jezdc - how are you feeling????
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5/22/2011 6:00 PM
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DLMiracle - Thinking of you while Im laying here after my transfer yesterday. Blessing to you as well. I will look for you update, as Im sure you are exhausted today...
Babies4us - Stay positive. Your beta appt. should be soon, right??
NWells - We will definitely cheer for you. Also I like the suppositories over the shots any day. I found if you get them in really well, there is not much of a discharge.. So I have been wearing a liner, but if that means no shot, then Im fine with that. LOL....
I had my transfer yesterday. 3 embies. The Dr.'s said they looked great. They grade 1 to 5. 1 being the best. And one embie was a grade 1 ad the other two were grade 2. So Im in my 2ww. And I hope I can keep my sanity. I have been watching movies all day, and the DH has been a blessing.. Thank God for great husbands.
Much Hope, Love, & Support
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5/22/2011 7:24 AM
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DLMiracle - good luck with you transfer today - I will keep you in my thoughts!!
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5/21/2011 8:15 PM
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Toni- I read your post and my heart jumped then I read further and i got a tear, you are in my thoughts, I know how hard it is, and I will be thinking about our friend, may her lil one pull through.
I will be doing another month of Lupron depo, mainly because the office will be closed the last week in June and the timing won't work out right, SOOOOO, I go for my third Lupron shot on June 9th, then on June 30th I start 10cc Lupron daily and I go for my base line and will begin stims on July 7th.So I will be there with you all in July,and hopefully Ind girl, DLmiracle, babies4us, linz34, and babytoro, will have BFP's by that point and you will all be cheering for me!!!
As for the progesterone shots, I did them my first two cycles and then my RE put me on Endometrin inserts, not sure which I would prefer actually, the inserts are yucky and I have to put them in three times so I basically have to use a pantie liner all the time. I started with the crinone cream and and was allergic. So ladies I totally know what you all are going through, been there and I will be heading there for #5. I am actually really excited and can't wait to start!! So I will be joining you alll soon!! take it easy, and toni I am thinking about you!!!
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5/21/2011 4:13 PM
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DLMIRACLE: I hope everything works out for you. May God permit this little miracle happen for you and your hubby. Just keep your faith strong and believe everything will be alright.
Linz34: I guess that it is comforting knowing that someone out there will be taking the same meds as I am. We need to keep each other posted on how these meds are working for us. I am just so scared of mixing something wrong and doing a mistake cause I cant afford to buy all these meds again. It was so expensive but I guess that if it works I wont think it was expensive. Anything for a little bundle of joy, it will all be worth it. Well I hope to hear from you again IVF buddy, I am sure we will be supportive with each other and everybody else going through this journey.
Toni: I know I haven't been here to long, but I am truly sorry for what happened. You and your family will be in our thoughts and prayers. I hope God guides you in what is best for your family.
As for me, I am just trying to stay relaxed cause I know that if I start stressing out I will probably start getting anxiety attacks like I do every time I am scared about something. BEST WISHES to everyone.
Oh one more thing, what is this about the pineapple? never heard of that before.
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5/20/2011 6:42 PM
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Toni - I'm confused????? Well hope it works out for the best. I'm sorry about evrything else that you are enduring now. Peace, Love & Blessings
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5/20/2011 6:40 PM
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Hello everyone,
Just wanted to wish evryone a nice weekend.
Ind girl - My thoughts are with you as you go for your FET tomorrow. good luck and many blessings to you and your husband.
My retrieval is scheduled for sunday, with a 3 or 5 day transfer after that.
blessings everyone!!!!
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5/20/2011 1:40 PM
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Toni....I sent you an email and wanted to let you to know to check for it.
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5/19/2011 11:48 PM
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Hi Toni, I am so sorry that you are having to endure this roller coaster of emotions right now. It is hard enough to get a BFN but I think it's even harder to get a BFP and then have to worry about if the pregnancy will last or not. I will be thinking of you throughout the weekend and praying that God blesses you with your miracle. Take it as easy as possible, drink lots & lots of water, and rest whenever you can with your feet up. Remember..."Let go & let God"...it is all we can really do. I am really hoping for you.
Also, so very sad to hear about your friend & her little girl. As you remember, I was just shy of 23 weeks when I gave birth to the boys. I know how hard it is to hold your baby(s), hear their cries, and then have to let go. I hope things turn around for your friend and her baby gains strength & weight. It's so hard when they are this little. Makes sure she takes lots of pictures and if at all possible, holds her whenever she can.
Stay strong, Toni. You're in my prayers.
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5/19/2011 10:27 PM
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Hello Sisters,
It is me.... we had a bad day today, and I will tell you why. I went to the Dr. Tuesday afternoon, and he told me he saw a sac in the ultrasound! Well my heart leaped out of my chest, because I examined what I passed and it looked like a 6 week baby to me. The RN told me that I was only weeks 2 days at the moment and what I brought in was too big to be my baby. So now they do a Beta and the numbers had gone up a bit since the last test. Today's repeat went down from 3400 to 1050, so the little hope that I had been given was diminished. I was told to stay on my meds until my next Beta on Monday, the bleeding stopped on Tuesday and now I am in limbo, praying to God for his wonderful miracles and next minute I am crying for my lost babies.
Then I hear of our family friend who was pregnant and went into pre-term labor at 22 weeks she made it to 23 weeks and had a baby girl, but the prognosis is very dim right now the poor baby has an infection and she is not gaining weight. So I have to pull my self up, I did not have to look into the eyes of my baby and then lose it as she did. I have to look for the blessing that God has provided me along this journey.
I will be checking the postings but I need to try to get my self together.
Thank you all for the caring words and the understanding, I live through your joy and love.
I love you all and I pray for success for us all.
God Bless
Toni
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5/19/2011 11:16 AM
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I just checked back in for the first time in nearly a week.
Toni, I am so sorry to hear your news. My heart aches for you and your DH. You are being so strong about this it is an inspiration. Best of luck to you in your continued journey, wherever it may lead you.
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5/19/2011 10:15 AM
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Toni - I am so sorry to hear about your news. You are in my thoughts and I hope you will continue your journey however you feel is the right way to go.
I just had a question for you ladies. So I am in the 2ww and I had sore breasts, but that went away and I have been having night sweats for the past 5 nights. I had my transfer 5/11 and have been on progesterone shots. Have any of you ladies that have had positive pregnancies experienced these symptoms or I am just in store for a BFN? I am trying to stay positive as this is probably our last hope. Any words of wisdom/advise would be great.
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5/18/2011 7:11 PM
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Toni – I’m so sorry for your loss. I know this is heartbreaking for you and I just hope you and your husband will continue to be positive as you consider adoption. Please keep writing us – it is all our shared experiences that make us stronger and able to deal with the bumps along the way as we try to become parents.
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5/18/2011 10:40 AM
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Toni - No words can express the sadness I feel for your situation. It all just changed so suddenly. I'm hoping that whatever is meant for you, will bring you the most happiness. Please take time to heal from this. You are a strong person, thats for sure. But even the strongest need to allow healing to begin.. I will be thinking of you.
Qgirl - Congrats on the 1st ultrasound. Keep us posted. And fingers crossed that everything will go smoothly.
jdglak & Qgirl - Progesterone shots SUCK!!!!! I tried everything to allow my body to adjust to them. Nothing worked. So with this time around, My Dr. & I had already decided that suppositories were the way to go. My knots were 4inches in diameter. HUGE.. So I was happy for the insertion this morning. LOL.. So far it is a little messy, but I guess my tru opinion will come out after a few days of using them.
Babies4us - Im wishing you much luck, just try to think positive (although hard) . Im hoping the best for you. Remember one day at a time. (I will need someone to tell me this exact same thing next week)
I had my Dr. appt. yesterday and Im still on schedule for Saturday. I will find out the time tomorrow. Im so very nervous. Im trying to stay calm. But Im so frekaing scared it wont work. Its all because this is the last try. So Friday I will do some much needed soul searchng and find that inner strength to get me through. And then hopefully I will be prepared mentally on Saturday, if not the Valium will come in handy. I did however eat my very first Pineapple Core last night. It wasn't bad at all. Pineapple is my favorite fruit, so I didn't mind trying the part that we all throw away. Honestly it wasnt bad. It wasnt very hard, so Im sure thats what made it ok for me. Well I will keep you guys posted with everything. And a reminder, I will be taking the week off next week, so I will be on the forum much more often in the next 2 weeks. Take care everyone, and much much much Baby Dust to all..
Much Hope, Love, & Support
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5/18/2011 8:09 AM
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good Morning ladies it is another rainy day here in CT. Kind of puts you in a low, depressing mood.
Toni, I don't think words can explain what you are going through, I am thinking about you and admire your strength. We are with you and here for you.
I had my second Lupron shot last thursday, I meet with my RE on Friday to plan our cycle, good chance we will be starting Lupron daily in two weeks, I will know for sure on Friday. I am nervous going into this one, my thoughts are all over the place, will I be a thinking to much into it this time, looking for the signs and symptoms, will I bleed, will our embies grow. I am going to try to do everything the same as we did in October, go to acupuncture twice a week, eat healthy, no drinking, I am even going to add yoga into the mix this time. I am in better shape this time, I have lost 10 pounds since Jan, which was mainly all the weight I put on from the treatment and preg, I would love to be down another 5 by the time I start, it is possible, just need to keep going to boot camp and eat right. NO Sweets, i am a sucker for sweets!!! Well ladies I will keep you posted!!
To those in the 2ww, stay sane and to those with BFP congrats, and those who have BFN's I have been there and know how you feel, stay strong and believe!!!!
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5/18/2011 8:04 AM
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Toni - I am so sorry to hear your news! I will be praying for God to help you make the decision on what to do next whatever that may be.
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5/18/2011 12:05 AM
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Dearest Toni,
I am so very sorry to see your news. I was so excited for you and just can't believe that this happened to you again. I am glad you have a strong faith as I know that will help to see you through the decisions that lie ahead. (read Jerimiah 29: 11-13) I understand being torn about your remaining embies. If you change your mind and decide to try again with them, let's brainstorm about some possible things first. If you decide to give them to another couple and pursue adoption then I hope things go smoothly for you. I know that somehow, someway the baby you are meant to have forever will find its way to you. Keep us posted as I will be thinking about you. God bless.
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5/17/2011 5:07 PM
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Dear Toni, I just checked in on the forum and saw your sad news, my heart aches for you and your husband. You are impressive and I am glad your faith is helping you through this. Take care of yourself. C
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5/17/2011 9:35 AM
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Toni - my dear, I am so sorry...It is good that you are holding on to your faith, God is the only one that can carry us throught our difficult times. I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart. I hope that you are able to adopt a wonderful little boy/girl. God bless you and your husband. You are truly an inspiration!!!!
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5/17/2011 9:32 AM
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Toni- My heart just breaks for you. I am sorry you are going through this again. I hope you are able to have your dreams come true soon even if through adoption. xoxo
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