4/29/2010 7:38 PM
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Hi, there! I'm back at home resting. All went well today. My embryo looks good. Stick, stick, stick!! I was very nervous about the thawing, wew, all is good. Pregnancy test is May 10... here I go on my 2ww.
luci - I hope you are doing ok.
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4/29/2010 3:45 PM
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Hi everyone-
Luci,I'm so sorry to hear that your beta is going down. This is such a tough process. I am thinking of you and hoping for the best.
I wish I had better news to report but my pregnancy test was a BFN. And no embryos to freeze. I am so depressed and discouraged. I tried so hard to do everything right. I did acupuncture, i stayed on bedrest for 4 days , I ate the pineapple, I took all my meds.... This is so hard. It has been 3 years of trying, with 2 unsuccessful IUIs and now 2 unsuccessful IVFS. I don't know if I can stay positive anymore. I am losing hope that this will ever work for us....
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4/29/2010 8:40 AM
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Hello Sisters,
I hope you are are well. I have been MIA because of so much with work. They have laid me off, so I am on hold for a while with my snow babies waiting for me!!! AHHHHH.
I started looking for a new job and I do not know what will happen.
Good luck my sisters that are waiting for results. Kisses to my nieces and future babies that will make me a happy happy Auntie.
Hoping please put all this things in the hands of God and talk talk talk to anyone that you feel will help you. You need to be enjoying this special miracle.
Jedi- I was thinking of your miracle the other day I am glad you are doing so well.
Wannabe- keep us posted I am praying so much for your success.
To everyone else keep the faith and never forget to love and live.
Love Toni
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4/29/2010 7:50 AM
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Good luck today Ladybug
Luci- I am sorry to hear you are in such limbo right now. I hope it turns out ok but if not we are all here for you.
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4/28/2010 11:25 PM
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Ladybug....Just wanted to say "good luck" one more time. I hope your FET goes smoothly and your emby nestles in quickly for a long 9 months! Let us know how things go. Drink lots of water, feet up, pineapple, etc. You know the drill. Wishing you the very best!
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4/28/2010 10:09 PM
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Luci - I'm thinking good thoughts for you and hoping things do turn around for you. Hang in there. I know these are tough times. I'll be thinking about you.
Ok, signing off... gotta a big day tomorrow. Love ya all!! Baby dust!!
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4/28/2010 4:55 PM
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Luci...so very sorry you are having to go through this and "not knowing" what is to happen. Will keep praying that things rebound for you and will be keeping you in my thoughts. Please keep us posted.
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4/28/2010 2:08 PM
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I went to the doctor today. They called a few hours ago. My beta actually dropped from145 to 138. He said that there is a chance that it could rebound, but it is unlikely. He said that I will probably miscarry. I go back on friday to see what my beta is doing. I just really thought that this was our happy ending finally. I guess I was wrong. I am trying to remain positive ,it is really hard.
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4/27/2010 10:15 PM
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Wannabe- Yes Chapel Hill is where I went. And I highly recommend them to ANYONE. I am so thankful to them for giving me a second chance at life. I hope it happens fast. Sorry the meds are not working as planned. Dont worry it will work just give it time.
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4/27/2010 8:28 PM
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Ladybug...PUPO is "pregnant until proven otherwise". Hope your beautiful emby nestles in happily!
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4/27/2010 7:34 PM
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Hi Ladies! Its been awhile since I posted on here. I have been waiting to start another IVF cycle since my last one was canceled. It took 61 days for me to get AF after my last cycle and I was really hoping to be pregnant naturally, but was disappointed again for the thousandth time!! I started birth control last Friday and will be on it for 2 weeks till I start Lupron.
Lucky3128 - it looks like we are starting a new IVF cycle at the same time....I really hope it works this time for both of us!!!
Welcome to all the newbies, and a big thank you to everyone for posting their stories...it really helps!!!
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4/27/2010 7:16 PM
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Wannabe - it is weird how the drugs don't always work the same each time. With my first IVF cycle I got I think 7 embryos. The second time, they increased my Lupron in hopes of recruiting more embryos and it worked just the opposite, I had 2 embryos so they flipped my cycle to an IUI. You just never know.
luci - hang in there, when do you go for another test?
Snowie - good luck with your 2ww - I'll be right there with you! Fortunately for you, you don't have to go on bed rest, you lucky girl. Since my bed rest will run into the weekend, I plan on taking one extra day and then back to work on Monday. My RE says take 3 days, I will do 4 in hopes of increasing my chance for implantation with my one beautiful lucky embryo. I wish I had a four-leaf clover right about now! Oh, and what is PUPO? I didn't see it on the list of abbrevations that were posted on here.
Nwells - sounds like you are in your own 2ww now for test results. Please let us know what they find, if anything at all. Hang in there, try to keep your mind off of it.
Anyhow, thanks for the positive thoughts. I will keep you posted.
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4/27/2010 4:46 PM
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Hello everyone,
Luci...will be eager to hear how things are going for you. Try not to stress about your numbers. Everyone's double at a different rate. I've know many women who start off slowely who go on to have totally normal preganancies and healthy babies. Will be thinking of you.
Snowie...nice to hear from you. I had a dentist appt. yesterday and was speaking to the dental assistant there. She mentioned that she wanted to have another baby but had her tubes tied years ago. She said she was investigating a place in NC....I asked "Chapel Hill" and she said yes. Isn't that where you went? Told her you had good things to say about them and we're all hoping you get a BFP soon! Small world, isn't it?
Went in today for another suppression check. Well, here in my 5th cycle, the Lupron did exactly the opposite of what it is supposed to do to me. For the first time, it "stimulated" my system. My estradial went from 116 last week to 243 this week. So, taking a trigger shot tomorrow to make me ovulate. Hopefully, that'll drop my estrogen. Will go in next week for a progesterone check. If that number is OK, will start back on Lupron again for 10-12 days and then check my baseline again. Crazy, huh? Now my FET has been moved back from the week of May 17 to the week of June 7th. Oh well, trying very hard to learn to just go with the flow. It's all in God's hands, not my control. Will keep you all posted.
Ladybug...wishing you the very, very best of luck with your FET later this week. I'll be praying for a big fat Positive for you!
Take care, gals!
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4/27/2010 1:25 PM
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hello ladies
this will be brief-
I am doing ok, the biopsy went well, hurt like a &IIIITCH!!!! they gave me a pill and it took a little of the edge off but I still felt the pain, I am crampy but not too bad!! I took the second one right after and went home and slept now it is just waiting for the results. I go on the MAy 14th to see how ALL our testing went. I am going to take a break until July unless i am told otherwise. My body is a compete mess, I can't sit from the progest shots, I am an emotional mess and so edgy, need Myrtle to come and my body to get it self back to normal- UGH If I was home and not at work right now I would be on a walking with my dog, crying my eyes out- you ask why a walk, because eventually the walking helps me sort out why I am crying and I usually come back feeling soooo much better!!! Instead I am at work, and writing you all to keep myself from breaking down and balling my eyes out, I am on verge of tears every second and my students know I am not myself today!!!! must be the lack of hormones in my system or something!!!
Luci- relax and take it easy, hopefully it turns out for the best!!! I am pulling for you.
Everyone else, have a great day, rest up and I will talk to you all soon.
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4/27/2010 10:26 AM
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Good luck to all of you going through your procedures and 2ww.
We are finally ready to start IVF again after having our last cycle canceled. Which was also our 1st. I started my BCP yesterday. So I will be on them for about a month. We are doing a very different drug regimen this time around. I will only be a very watered down version of Lupron for 2 days twice a day before I start the stimulation drugs. So they don't want to suppress my body very much. So that is good a week and a half less of shots! Yeah!!! So I will starting stims May 29thand egg retrieval will be 2nd week of June. I am so ready to get started again and get through this. I just want it to be over with!
For those of you who have gotten pregnant thank you so much for coming back and sharing your stories. It really does give me hope that this can work!
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4/27/2010 7:29 AM
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Hoping- ML = Make Love. It is good that you have an understanding doctor. I will keep you in my thoughts. Yes I am only 3DPO so I wont be Testing till at least the middle of next week. But it is a good feeling knowing we have a chance every month again rather than the one try at IVF (or more if you have frozen). I only wish we would have researched the TR more but oh well we tried. and we will keep trying
Luci- hang in there I agree with Hoping things could change...stranger things have happened.
Ladybug- Only a couple more days and you will be PUPO!!!
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4/26/2010 11:18 PM
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Luci - I am so sorry to hear about your beta numbers, but don't give up. Weird/unexplained things can happen sometimes. Also, with my current pregnancy my numbers did not double between my first and second test and I am 22 weeks along with a healthy baby girl. Good luck to you, keep your thoughts positive and keep us posted.
Jedi - congrates on the genetic testing going well. I did genetic testing as well, but only blood work and ultrasounds (2 rounds of blood work and 2 ultrasounds). They take all the info and combine it together and then give you results. Everything is completely healthy with my little girl too. The only weirdness was a protein that they test for that comes from the baby. My numbers came back higher than normal. I have been trying not to think about that because everything else has been going good thus far. What is your exact due date? Mine is August 31st. Do you have any names picked out yet?
Wannabe - Thanks for the well wishes and encouragement. My doc is so sick of getting emails from me, but I emailed her last week and told her I needed to come in just to hear the baby's heartbeat and she made an appointment for me that afternoon. She is being very understanding. You are correct about the proteins in the urine. They test me for that every time I go to the OB, but the proteins that came back high are proteins that the baby makes. I have no idea how they can tell the difference in my blood between my blood work and the baby's, but somehow they do (amazing).
Snowie - Nice to see you. I am trying so very hard to enjoy the pregnancy, but I have to take it minute by minute. I see the doc on Wednesday. I am sure after that appointment I will have a few "up" days. You are on you 2WW? When will you test? What does ML stand for?
To all others. I am sending baby dust your way....
Hey - has anyone heard from movan or Toni?
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4/26/2010 1:54 PM
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I am having a bad day. I went in for blood work today. The doctor just called back with the results. Since friday my beta only went from 107 to 145. The doctor is concerned , so I have to go back for more bloodwork on Wed. They kept telling me that if I have any bleeding or cramping to call. I am really scared. I really thought that this was finally it, our happy ending. The nurse just didn't sound very optimistic. I just don't know what to do.
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4/26/2010 12:13 PM
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I've been reading your posts the last few days and want to join in...I had my first IVF cycle 6 years ago, which was unsuccessful, adopted 2 boys 5 years ago and now we're trying IVF again. I had my baseline on Sunday, start the drugs on Thursday. I always feel so alone in my journey with no one to talk to that really gets it. A very good friend of mine has a 6 mo old baby boy from IVF, I'm going to the same center she went to - I just don't get to talk to her very often.
It's nice to come here and see a sisterhood of support and encouragement. I've had to go through a lot to get to this point of my cycle, including finding out I have Hydrosalpinx (blocked & fluid filled tube) and having the Essure procedure done (tubes sealed with coils). I knew I had blocked tubes from a major surgery when my appendix ruptured, but just finding out about the fluid and having to have a procedure to seal my tubes (it's actually permanent birth control) was hard because it was like letting go of the hope my husband and I had for years that maybe we would be blessed with a miracle and get pregnant on our own. Now I'm 38 and I've let go of that hope, but I'm really excited knowing that we have more than 1 try at this and still very hopeful that we'll get to have a baby. I pray the best for all of you!
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4/26/2010 1:52 AM
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Hello Mommies and Future Mommies,
It has been a couple months since I posted and thought I should say hello, and let those who remember me some updated news. Anybody remember me? I've checked in a few times but it seems not enough to keep up. I see some new names and stories - welcome to the forum; and it is nice to see some very familiar names.
I'm now 25 weeks pregnant and doing fairly well considering some minor complications. For those newbies here: yes, it is still possible to get pregnant with IVF at advanced age (now 44) with your own eggs and still not miscarry. Supposedly my chances were about 5% which did not even figure in my husband's fertility issues, but I thought that someone makes up those small percentage points, and it could be me. Our gamble finally worked. We are expecting our little girl in early August and she is already kicking and pushing hard enough to keep me from sleeping.
This forum is full of wonderful but also sorrow filled stories. Our ladies here are so supportive, while many going through some of the most long, empty, and seemingly unfair times in their lives. It is difficult to read about the turmoil, but the information can be valuable. Perhaps I can be an inspiration and a help. I certainly don't intend to make anyone feel bad about their unsuccessful and heartbreaking attempts (I've had enough of my own), but just not to give up hope too soon.
hoping2Bmommy: Congratulations. You are just a few weeks earlier along than I and we are both expecting girls! I completely understand your anxiety, but mine had been a bit different. In February I had an amniocentesis because of my advanced maternal age (we knew the risks going in to this). Before IVF, I knew that I was going to have to wait until at least 16 weeks of pregnancy for an "all-clear" chromosomal analysis report. I have had amniocentesis performed before and knew what to expect, but this time it was an agonizing 10 day wait with markers possibly indicating chromosomal abnormalities. My emotions ran the gamut: why now after coming this far, why me, there is no god, I can't bear these decisions, helplessness, anger, weird nightmares, uncontrollable crying, convincing myself of the worst so it somehow it won't be, and a whole mess of other horrible indescribable emotions only reserved for the hardest times of our lives. I don't know if this would be helpful at all, but just know that there are others that can have a hard time dealing with perplexing emotions. Get help if you think you need it and understand that you are not alone. I think many people are embarrassed of their thoughts or anxieties, think nobody wants to hear from the crazy hormonal lady, or they just forget. Hang in there! By the way, the report was all good - I almost fainted.
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4/25/2010 10:44 PM
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Whats POAS? I looked for it on the list, but didn't see it.
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4/25/2010 9:43 PM
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Thank you all for sending luck my way. I am a bit nervous but trying to stay calm for the most part. Thursday cannot get here quick enough. My blood test will be May 10, the day after Mother's Day. So... do I POAS before then?
Good luck to all of you ending your 2ww this week and I am wishing you all BFP!
Good night all.
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4/25/2010 8:09 PM
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Hello Ladies
Its been a while since I've posted.
Thanks to Tiff or sharing your story.
Congrats to Luci, and Hoping. Good Luck to Cristeen, Irishgirl, Ladybug, Snowie and Nwells.
Welcome and good luck to Fensox and Scots .
Lucky-I'm suppose to start Synarel instead of lupron on the 28th, which is a week before starting Bravelle and Menopur injections. So maybe I won't have those side effects. I'm just getting started and I am nervous and excited at the same time. I have a small idea of what to expect since joining the forum and reading everyone's else experiences. So thanks to everyone for that. I go for my baseline US on the 5th and start taking my shots on the 8th of May.
Baby dust to everyone.
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4/25/2010 1:27 PM
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Just wanted to say good luck to everyone going thru something this week! Good luck to Fensox and Scots on the preganancy test (mine is tues the 27th) and good luck to ladybug on the FET!
Snowie, isn't the 2ww the worst?!!
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4/25/2010 11:19 AM
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Hoping- I understand your anxiety and I hope the counseling helps. A baby girl is going to be a wonderful addition to your family and she will be just perfect. Dont forget to enjoy your pregnancy ( I know easier said than done )
Ladybug- The time is near ... good luck and lots of baby dust
AFM- I am 1DPO today and into my second 2WW since TR. I think if we dont get preggo this month we are going to stop all the testing and madness that goes with TTC and just ML and enjoy each other. It has been a CRAZY two months and I dont want that to consume me month after month.
For all the new names - Welcome and good luck to all of you.
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4/24/2010 2:44 PM
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Hoping....good to hear from you. Been concerned since you've been MIA for a bit. Glad all is well though. I know what you mean about the anxiety. I think we're programmed for it with all that we've been through. Congrats on your baby girl though! That is awesome! It sounds like your OB is monitoring you closely so that is good. Just call if you feel anything out of the ordinary. That's what we pay them for! Has he suggested anything to do about the proteins? Not sure exactly what that means (know they test your urine for proteins for preeclampsia, but yours sounds different.) Sure you've been "googling" also to read up. Remember to drink lots of water, lay on your left side, and put your feet up whenever you can. All of those things help with preventing preterm labor. Take good care and keep us posted on things. Feel free to vent whenever needed!
Luci1313....your beta numbers sound fine. Everybodys rise a bit different but yours sound good. For kicks, you might want to check out betabase at www.Betabase.info if you haven't already done so. It's a good way to see how your numbers compare with everyone elses.
NWells...good luck on Monday and hope the biopsy goes smoothly. Enjoy the "happy drugs" and let us know how things go.
Hope everyone is having a good weekend.
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4/24/2010 1:37 PM
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I am trying not to obsess to much. We did another beta yesterday. It was 107. So it is rising , not quite doubling. I have to go back on Mon for another beta . Depending how that goes I might only have to go back once a week to check my beta. I guess I would feel better if I had more symptoms. The only things that I have noticed is that I am breaking out like I am 13 again, I don't feel very well not really nausea and I am so tired all the time. I know that every pregnancy is different but I felt more last time. My chest doesn't hurt and that is really bothering me. The nurses don't seem to concerned. They keep saying that it is early and that my body is used to the hormones , so not to worry. I just can't stop. I go from being so happy and convinced that this pregnancy is going to finally be our miracle to terrified it will end like the others.
Fensox- I hope that you get good news at the end of your wait.
NWells- I hope that after tomorrow you finally get some answers.
I think I am going to take a nap. I hope that everyone has a nice weekend and baby dust to all.
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4/24/2010 10:44 AM
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hey ladies figure I would check in
LUCI congrats!!! you give me hope!!!
I go on monday for my uterine biopsy to see if my lining is where it should be on day 25, then it is just waiting to meet with my RE to figure out what the disastrous Mock cycle told her. the nurse at the Doc said that everything that is happening is going to give the doctors so many more answers and that is why they did this. She said that if all this bleeding is happening with them controlling my hormones it is going to give them some answers as to what is going on. ?- isn't this the process you go through to do a FET??????? So that is where I am right now, I will update you on Tuesday, seeing monday I will be taking some happy pills for my procedure :0) and will probably sleep and be lazy all day!!! have a great weekend ladies!!!!
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4/24/2010 10:09 AM
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hoping2bmommy: Thank you for sharing your anxiety. We all have our own anxiety and for different reasons. I know myself, I am in the 2ww period and the is my first cycle of IVF. How should I be feeling, should I let myself be excited at the possibility, should I just not think about it... My husband and I can't focus on anything else right now and is that bad? It is nice to read what other people are feeling and going through to help put your own feelings into perspective and to also be able to try and support someone else...
So we are all here to support eachother at whatever stage we are in...
Positive - happy thoughts for a beautiful and healthy baby girl!
Fensox
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4/24/2010 12:10 AM
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Hi ladies - wannabe, thanks for asking about me. I am currently 21 weeks pregnant and have been going through some tough anxiety issues (all related to trying to and being pregnant). I saw a therapist last week who told me I have PTSD, which I thought was weird, but I guess it makes sense. One of the reasons she thinks I have PTSD is because I have never had the opportunity to recover from anything. Because of my age I could not afford the luxury of letting myself wait before trying again and again and again.
Over two years ago I was rushed to the hospital because I was bleeding internal with a ripped tube (and of course I lost the tube). Then after months of trying with my one tube left, I was told I needed to seek infertility help. After many IUI's and two failed attempts with IVF (with my own eggs), we moved on to donor. I got pregnant on the first try, but quickly m/c'd. Six weeks later, we tried with frozen and I got pregnant again with twins, but lost one of the twins. I am so grateful to be pregnant currently, but am racked with worry constantly. The baby was a week behind, but still growing on a weekly basis. Then some of my blood work came back weird. I had an ultrasound two weeks ago and they said the baby looked great and it's a girl - woohoo - we really wanted a girl. The blood work, however, is still off. Basically, some of the proteins came back high and they can be associated with slow growth and preterm labor. I have been asking to see my doctor every other week, so I can hear my baby girl’s heartbeat and of course every time I hear it I cry from relief.
I am trying so hard to just be happy and enjoy this pregnancy, but the worry consumes me. I have been keeping up with most posts, but just felt like posted my anxiety isn't going to help anyone here.
I am so sorry to hear of the devastation and frustration that some are going through, but thrilled by the successes.
So, thus far my baby girl is growing well, but due to my blood work, I will have another ultrasound at 28 weeks and in my third trimester they will have me do stress tests on a weekly basis (not sure what that is).
Thanks to all for letting me vent. Baby dust all around. I hope you all have a good weekend.
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4/22/2010 8:52 PM
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Wannabe - my tests for blot clotting disorders all came back negative. I'm assuming that's why my dr didn't put me on baby aspirin? Perhaps I should ask when I go in for my transfer 1 week from today. Hmmm... never hurts to ask.
Tiff- thank you sooooooooooooo much for sharing your story. It definitely gives me hope (and I'm sure others as well). 2 ivf cycles later, both with BFP and both ending in m/c, and then 1 ivf cycle (was actually my 2nd cycle) cancelled and flipped to IUI with a negative result (which was not a surprise). I still have hope though!
Baby dust to all! Good night, sweet dreams. I'm watching the end of Survivor and then time for my Lupron shot.
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4/22/2010 2:46 PM
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hello ladies....
Tiffany..thanks for your post and for sharing your story. It is good hear that the medicine regimens really do work to help us all achieve a successful pregnancy. Congratulations on your two healthy boys. They are each a miracle. If I have learned anything in this entire process, it is to trust my instincts and to be my own advocate. No one knows our bodies better than we do.
Ladybug...I would speak to your RE about also taking a baby aspirin. For those of us with MTHFR, our blood tends to clot more than most people. This can often cause clotting in the placenta and therefore cause the body to abort the baby. Everything I have googled and read about the mutation suggests that 4-5mg of Folic Acid (in addition to your prenatal vitamins) and a baby aspirin daily are typically recommended. For some of us, we are also put on a blood thinner once you conceive. Some OB's prescribe Folgard which is a combination of the folic acid & B vitamins that we need. My OB seems to feel that just straight folic acid is enough. I will be discussing this with her again once I am pregnant though.
Luci1818...I will be on Lovenox / Heparin until the time of delivery. I imagine that you will take it throughout your pregnancy. Let us know. It's good for each of us to compare as it helps give us knowledge when talking to our OB's.
Thanks to everyone for welcoming me back from Mexico. Good to talk with you all again. XO
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4/22/2010 12:53 PM
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Good morning ladies.. Its been a long time since Ive been on the boards and I have been reading for hours, trying to catch up and hear all your stories..
It was exactally one year ago today that I had my ER from my first try at IVF... That retrevial resulted in the birth of my son Luke, Dec. 10,2009...7 weeks early!!!
As I read a lot of your stories I see the same problems that affected me happenng to many of you.. Im hoping that maybe if I share my story with you ladies, some of you will find some answers or atleast questions for your RE...
My hubby and I were married 9/11/04.. On our honeymoon, I tossed my birth control pills over the side of our cruise ship (not very enviormental,,yikes) in the middle of the carribean.. I got pregnant a month later... We were sooo excited, I had just turned 34 and my hubby was 29... we waited to tell everyone until Thanksgiving. Our families were happy and excited.. a week later I m/c at 7 weeks.. Both of us took it very hard, but in time, we were ready to try again.. In March 2005 I got pregnant again... I tried to be happy and positive, but after the 1st loss, I was very gaurded.. Too add to the nervousness, the HPT came back with a faint pink line, same as the 1st pregnancy, and never got darker... At my 8 week appt. we saw a heartbeat, but the baby was measuring a week behind,, My OB did not seem concerned, but I was a mess... A week later I lost all my symptoms...My boobs did'nt hurt, my morning sickness was gone and had the overall feeling something wasnt right.. I went back to my OB and learned that there was no heartbeat... at 10 weeks I lost another baby and had to have a D&C,,,, My OB decided it was time to do some test.. I had blood test after blood test and HSG test (dye in the folopian tubes looking for a blockage) and thyroid test...the test revealed the following...
+ for MTHFR homozygote, and an excess of Anti-thyroid antibodies...
The MTHFR Homozygote means that my body cannot absorb folic acid, vitamin b product and/or vitamin C. It also means that I have a tendency to have blood clots...Not good during pregnancy... The TPO (antibodies) dont help much either.. Theyantibodies are like the devil,, They attack the Thyroid, but the Thyroid does not react.. When I become pregnant, the antibodies see the fetus as a "foreign object" and direct all their attention to the fetus instead of the thyroid, therefore attacking the fetus...
My OB put me on baby asprin and thyroid Doc started me on synthroid... 5 months later, (Oct, 2005) I got pregnant again.. This time the HPT turned dark purple before I could even pull up my jeans...My 1st beta test at about 4 weeks was at 367... it continued to double and triple and I had a very uneventful pregnancy. On July 19, 2006, my 1st son, Jackson was born (after 22 hellish hours of labor)...
Now, I wanted to try again right away , seeing as I was 35 and I knew that my time was limited (so sad when you think 35 is old).. to my surprise and my husbands shock, we got pregnant again in October 2006 when Jackson was 3 months old... After many tears and excitement and shock, I soaked it in and could'nt wait for another baby... 4 days later I m/c.... I kind of expected it, seeing as the faint pink line struck again.... Well life moved on and I was sooo busy with Jackson, i kind of forgot about getting pregnant again, that was until May 2007... PREGNANT again... But this time, I bought the Clear Blue easy test that said the words... In the morning I got a big PREGNANT...in the evening it was NOT Pregnant....hmmmm, confused... OB did a beta and it came back at 19....needless to say I m/c again.... So final count, 4 m/c's and one gorgeous little boy...
we kept trying and after a year of no luck, started the IUI process... All 4 failed... In March 2009 we decided to give IVF ONE try... I found a fabulous RE who came highly recommended. He instanly put me on metanex for the MTHFR (highly concetrated folic acid/multi vitamin),,,
He retreived 11 eggs, 10 mature, 8 fertilized and 3 made it to 5 day blasts... only one was top of the line quality egg, the other 2 were so so....
I did not take a HPT during the 2ww... I knew in my heart that I was not going to be pregnant so what was the purpose... I had my 1st beta 14 days after ET... it was only 66.... I was devestated,, The RE was "cautiously optimistic".. I knew what that meant...plus the HPT,,,light pink again.... 4 days later it double,,, that was my last beta, instead I had US every week... I also started Lovenox shots daily for the clotting.... That little baby measured a week behind, but kept hanging on... He gre and grew, I spotted many times and lost symptoms, but that little guy kept on keeping on... I was put on bedrest many times throught my pregnancy, either for spotting and/or low amniotic fluid...
On December 10, 2009 a US revealed I had NO amniotic fluid left...my OB scheduled an emergency C-Section for 9pm that night and at 9:19, Luke was born... he weighed 4lbs 9oz.. He was tiny.. He stayed in the NICU for 2 weeks until he learned how to suck swallow and breathe all at the same time.. When I brougfht him home he weighed 4 lbs, 13oz.... The little porker is now 4 months old and weighs 14 lbs....
I know this is a looooong post and if your still with me, I just want to say never give up hope.... I thought I was outta the game, but at 39 years old I have 2 beautiful little boys and all the hell and hard times are a distant past.. Keep on keeping on, listen to your bodies... I pray every night for all of the ladies and gentelmen going through this pain and process... Its a long hard journey, and there is something special in all of us who take it, sometimes over and over again.....god bless you all.....baby dust by the gallons coming your way.....
Tiffany.....
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4/21/2010 9:59 PM
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Thank you all so much for the positive thoughts.
Wannabe-- I am glad that you had a good vacation. I am on 4, 1mg folic acid pills a day plus what I get from the prenatal I have been on. I am also on baby aspirin. I know I go on heparin once we see a heartbeat but I don't know for how long. I am still taking estrace and the wonderful progesterone shots. I hope that everything goes well for you.
I had more bloodwork done today. My beta rose to 62, almost double. My progesterone dropped to 28.8. They nurse didn't seem to concerned. She said that it is fine as long as it doesn't drop below 20. Should I be concerned? I have to go back on Friday and possibly Monday. If things keep looking well then I get to only go back once a week and have my first sonogram on May 14 th (that was the guess). Hopefully things keep going well. It would be nice to get good news around the 14. My due date for the baby I lost is the 13th, they would be a year old. I would like to spend a mother's day with family instead of crying on the couch and not talking. I am so afraid to be really happy. My sister went through ivf last year and miscarried. Her problems are all age related, she is 41. I haven't told her yet because while I was waiting to know she said that getting pregnant with ivf was the easy part, it is staying pregnant that is the hard part, so not to get to excited if I was. I know that she is trying to keep me grounded, but I can't think like that. I am going full tilt, imaging the nursery and the first few days home. I am so terrified, but so happy . It is hard to be both. I am trying to be calm and positive. It is hard after all that has happened. I am just trying to enjoy every minute of it that I can. I better get off now, I could ramble on about my fears all night.
I wish luck to everyone !! Goodnight
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4/21/2010 8:34 PM
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Wannabe - Glad to hear you had a wonderful time on vacation. It is nice to hear from you. I am on 4000 mcg of the folic acid but no baby aspirin. I've noticed a lot of postings on here mentioning the baby aspirin. My RE has never told me to take it. What's its purpose?
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4/21/2010 6:57 PM
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Hi everyone-
luci: CONGRATS!!!! That is great news and a great morale booster for all of us. Good luck, hope that beta skyrockets!
Wannabe: glad you had a good vacation, I think you needed it. It's also good to have some time away with your husband to just enjoy each other's company and relax. This process is so stressful, and it can put strain on even the best relationships. I am on Arixtra shots, which is a blood thinner, but I think it only affects the bloodflow to the placenta. I started it the night of the transfer. I am also on baby aspirin and folic acid (and of course the fun progesterone shots!)
Fensox: after trying to get pregnant for 3 years, including 2 IUIS and now 2nd iVF, i have completly given up on trying to predict if I am pregnant. there were so many time that i was SO SURE because I felt tired, nauseous, headache, etc...(also because I could go 50-60 days without a period) but I have come to accept that these meds can make you crazy and mimic so many sxs, i have to just wait for the test (6 more days!)
I went for blood work yesterday for my progesterone levels (which are fine) and had a total meltdown. For some reason the embryologist was taking the blood samples that day and I was drilling him with questions about if he thought it was a bad sign that there were only 2 viable embryos at the time of the transfer, and of questionable quality. He basically told me you just don't know, that he has seen beautiful babies come from low-quality embryos, and he has seen no babies come from beautiful embryos. Basically wait and see. I was just so upset because this was the exact same scenario as last time, and the embryos stopped developing after a few days. Trying so hard to be positive but I just don't know if I can handle another failure.... I went back to work yesterday and it was really good to have something else to occupy my thoughts!
Baby dust to all!
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4/21/2010 3:58 PM
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Hello lovely ladies! I have missed you all and just read a ton of posts trying to get caught up on everyone.
Mexico was wonderful and so needed. My hubby & I had a wonderful time, reconnected, relaxed, and recharged. Just what the doctor should have ordered for us! Weather was great and we are both very brown so all is good!
Welcome to all the new girls....glad to see that you have found a home here. You will love the support and friendships you will make here.
So many to mention..
Nwells....OMG...have you had enough already!? Hope your RE's figure out what the heck is going on with your system. Sure you are frustrated beyond imagination. Hang in there though and keep your eye on the prize. It'll all be worth the craziness once you get your baby someday.
Ladybug....glad to hear that all is on schedule for your FET. Isn't this type of cycle so much easier? Are you taking your extra Folic Acid & baby aspirin now? Do you have to do anything else additional? Hope all goes well next week!
mablackie...glad your shower was fun and sure you received lots of great things. Glad to hear all is going well. I'm sure things will continue smoothly for you. What is your due date? Are you planning a section earlier?
Fensox, Irishgirl, & Scots....know you are all in the 2ww. Hope you all get your BFP's very soon. Lots of water girls and rest whenever you can!
Luci1313...welcome! Congratulations on your pregnancy! Wonderful news! We have a few things in common. I, too, have a MTHFR mutation (I believe Ladybug does as well). Per my OB & RE I am taking additional folic acid daily (5 800mcg tablets) and a baby aspirin. I also have another blood clotting disorder known as Low Antithrombin activity and will be taking a dosage of Levonox (low molecular heparin) once we get a heartbeat. Like yourself, I lost a pregnancy. My twin boys were delivered prematurely at almost 23 weeks on January 10, 2010. All was going great until that night. We didn't know about the clotting disorders until after our loss. I know it's scary to begin again after a loss, but now that we are both armed with information and ready to deal with our blood issues, I have to believe that everything will be different this time. I'll be praying for you and hoping everything goes smoothly for you this pregnancy.
Cristeen7....so excited to hear about your DE. You will not regret it, I promise you. You will love this baby so very much. Keep us posted on how things are going.
I went to the RE yesterday morning after getting back at 3:00 AM from Mexico. Did a 2nd hydrosonogram as the first still showed some tissue present from the pregnancy. All looked good this time so ready to move forward. My E2 was still higher than they want so will continue on Lupron for another week and have another suppression check next Tuesday or Wednesday. From there will begin Estrace to build my lining and FET should be the week of May 17th. Are any of you gals with blood issues starting your Heparin (or like thinner) prior to transfer? As of now, I will start mine with the first heartbeat, but am considering talking to my OB about starting it earlier. I got pregnant last time without it, but have also read where it helps some girls to take it before. Of course, I'm already on the baby aspirin which also acts like a blood thinner of sorts. Just curious what you gals were doing.
To all the gals I didn't mention, hope you are all well. Haven't heard from hoping2be in quite a while. Hope your pregnancy is going well. To everyone else, sending you good thoughts and best wishes. Talk with you all soon!
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4/20/2010 8:06 PM
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Luci - Congratulations! Stay positive and just take one day at a time.
Fensox - my last IVF I had no idea I was pregnant. I was very surprised when I POAS and it was positive. Everyone's body is different. With my first IVF cycle, I had no clue what to expect and I thought all the symptoms I had were caused by the meds... turned out I was pregnant with twins that time. I'm hoping my next cycle, which will be a frozen transfer, will be the one that sticks.
Nwells - how are you doing?
I had another ultrasound and blood work today. The lining of my uterus looks good. Transfer is scheduled for 4/29.
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4/20/2010 7:01 PM
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luci1313 - congrats!!!!!! Keep positive happy thoughts flowing...
So why does everyone say you will know if you are pregnant - really? How do you know? Part of me wants to stop going on the internet because every little ache and pain I am researching. Could it be...
I am trying to stay calm, focused and positive but so afraid to get too excited or happy because of the what if...
These are all normal feelings right and any of you who have had success, did you know? Don't all the meds we have to take make your body think you are pregnant and give you the symptoms?
Ok, thank you for listening. This wait is so bad - LOL... Hey what's a few more days after a year and a half of trying the old fashioned way...
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4/20/2010 4:09 PM
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Its been awhile since I posted anything not much to say. Just waiting to get AF so I can start my BCP. Although a miracle would be nice. But I have seen so many BFN's I don't get my hopes up anymore.
But I have been keeping up with everyone's posts. All of your information is great.
To all of the new comers this site is wonderful!
Luci1313 - Congratulations! That is wonderful, stay positive!
NWells - So sorry about the bleeding. And that you have to have such a hard time with this.
Fensox - My nurse told me that bed rest isn't necessary. Just that I would be on pelvic rest. They said they have done studies that show it doesn't increase or decrease your chances. But after being on here and seeing what other RE's have said I plan to take a few days off work ans be on bed rest. Anything to help make this work. It certainly can't hurt anything.
To all of you who had problems on Lupron were you on it for more than a week before you started stims? I was only on it a week prior to starting my injections and I didn't have any side effects at all. So I am wondering if maybe it wasn't working correctly. Because I did have a canceled cycle due to my estrogen levels not rising.
To those of you in your 2ww good luck.
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4/19/2010 11:10 PM
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To all ladies...Good luck and I have everyone in my thoughts and prayers. I have to go back for more blood work tomorrow, doc decided for another round of shots..hoping for ER Thursday. I am sooo nervous..I am wondering how I am going to handle the 2ww.
luci1313...Congrats!!! Hoping everything will be fine for you and wishing you lots of luck!!
Irishgirl...Thank you and good luck, keeping my fingers crossed for you.
addis09...Thank you so much for the info..it was really helpful!
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4/19/2010 9:54 PM
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After waiting all day , my doctor finally called.....the test was positive. I am pregnant. I have to go back on Wed to make sure my beta keeps rising. I am so happy , but also scared to be happy. My estrogen and progesterone are really good. My beta is 38.9. The nurse said that it is good for a frozen cycle. I just hope that this works out. We have been trying for 5 yrs. 2 on our own and 3 with my RE. We came so close last time. It just has to work. I am not sure how long they will monitor my beta. Once I have my sonogram and there is a heartbeat then I get to go on 2 shots a day of heparin. Hopefully third pregnancy is the charm. Good luck to everyone else. I will keep you updated.
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4/19/2010 8:38 PM
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Took a shower today for the first time in days and I feel good! Glad to be off bedrest, I am going back to work tomorrow and will try to still not do too much physical work. The 2 week wait is agonizing!
Luci- good luck with that test!
Izzy and Cristeen- good luck with your cycles!
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4/19/2010 7:52 PM
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NWells - I am sorry to hear of what is happening to you. I hope doctors can provide you with answers to what is happening.
I was on BCP and lupron and bleeded for 5 to 6 days straigth after I had my period and my doctor and nurse at the time said it is fine it doesn't create any problems it is good to the lining. So it might be good praying for the best for u. And keep the faith.
Welcome to all the new sisters to the forum..and in regard to the pineapple - google it and you will find that it help with implantation They say it's actually the core of the pineapple that works best, not the pineapple itself. It's an enzyme called Bromelain, you can also take tablets from the health food store, but I don't know if it would work as well. Some say it needs to be fresh pineapple, because it is an enzyme.
http://youcangetpregnant.blogspot.com/2008/04/pineapple-pregnancy.html
Good luck,
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4/19/2010 5:46 PM
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Hello ladies. I have been on Lupron now for three weeks and now I seem to be having some moderate side effects. I have been really cramping and have been nauseous on and off. Has any one else experienced side effects after weeks on Lupron? I have my 1st Dr. appt. tomorrow morning for an ultrasound. If everything looks good, I could start my Bravelle this weekend. The plan is to take 2 Bravelle shots per day and cut my Lupron down to 5cc. Hopefully that puts my retrieval for the 1st week of May. I am so anxious to actually get started!!
Good Luck to all of the ladies on their 2ww. You will all be in my prayers. I know that I will be a nervous wreck the whole time!
NWells- I can understand why you are sooo frustrated. (Especially since your RE hasn't been able to give you answers.) I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, and hopefully you will find some answers soon!
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4/19/2010 10:45 AM
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Hi everyone!! It's been awhile. I check every few days to see how everyone is doing. Welcome to everyone new to the site. I l love it here. So many of my questions are answered and these ladies understand like noone else what I am going through.
Good luck and baby dust to everyone waiting right now..will be thinking of you and saying a prayer for everyone!
I found out this morning my egg donor got her period and will be starting BCP. We are waiting for mine to start which should be around the 28th or 29th and then I will start mine! She should have ER around June 5th. She did a cycle in Jan. and they are calculating ours based on what she did the last time! I am excited, scared, nervous, anxious...all of the above!! Her last donor cycle resulted in 22 eggs and a pregnancy!!! So we are hopeful!! I will be grateful to finally get some eggs to work with!! I had a cancelled cycle of my own in Sept and in Jan due to poor response. I will be 40 on May 16th. Can't believe we are finally to this point. I feel very lucky to even have this opportunity! I am also really scared about the 2WW and wondering how to do everything to hold on to those little ones that I can..it has to be nerve racking!! I will definitely be asking everyone for their input on how they got through it!
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4/19/2010 9:07 AM
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NWells- I hope that they find out what the problem is. I will be sending good thoughts your way that they find a solution soon.
I just got back from the doctor. They said that they probably won't call until after 1 pm with the results. I am going crazy! I got my blood work around 8 am. I wish that I could tell for myself. In some ways I feel pregnant, in other ways I don't. The nurse said that it would be different because of all the hormones from ivf my symptoms may not be as noticible because I am used to the hormones. I will let you know when I know.
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4/18/2010 11:19 PM
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Hello everyone, I am new to this. I have been reading everyone's advice and concerns and it has been helping me through this stressful time. This is my first ivf and they are thinking of the egg retrieval being on Wednesday or Thursday. Anyone have any advice? Also, I was wondering if someone can tell me about eating pineapples?
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